I need change now more than I have ever needed it in my entire life. Im not comfortable in my own skin, I am not happy when I look in the mirror and most importantly i am not happy when I look around and there is no one there.
Okay yeah, living in a house with 10 people there is ALWAYS someone there. But theres never someone there as much as I need them to be. My life has changed so much this year it isnt even funny, actually when I look back I start to cry just thinking about all the people that have come and gone and come back again...or the people that have gone and dont plan on coming back. I go through moments in time where i decide that I need change and I "delete" negativity from my life. Meaning I delete people from my phone, myspace, and facebook...just so I have no way to contact anyone that brought negativity to my life and so there is no way that they can see whats going on in my life.....well im running out of negativity. Im not happy with most things in life but I cant find a reason or a person that is causing it but myself. It breaks my heart, I have no idea why im not happy yet im not.
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