the days are getting harder : (

So I only have 24 days left as Charlie and Hunters nanny which is realistically less because they will be with their mom some of those days and I have 32 days left as California resident. Im sure its getting old hearing about me moving hearing about my life changing and blah blah blah but I dont care, i dont really write this blog for you, I write it for me, I write it to get stuff off my mind.

I am really excited about my new job and the new opportunities and experiences I will have and as much as I love change, i have to admit im a little on the scared side. What if I get homesick all over again because 17745 honeycomb lane has been my home for 3 years. What if the job is totally not what I am looking for and I end up hating it? I really dont think that is going to happen, I met with Lisa and her family when I was in north carolina and fell in love with them all but at the same time this life has been normal for three years and its weird to think that my daily routine is going to be completely different. Heck im going to be on the opposite side of the country and im going to have to time everything just right if I want to talk to my california friends.

Which brings me to a good point. A lot of people ask me weekly, sometimes daily, "why are you moving to NC". And this is what I want you to know...Because. Thats really the only answer I can give you, because. Because I want to, and because I can oh and most importantly because theres no one here that can stop me.

Im going to miss my friends very much and i mean very very very much. It just might be harder to leave these friends than it was to leave my friends in vw 3 years ago and only because when I left vw I knew that I would be home to visit, I would always have a reason to go back with that reason being family. Obviously everyone i know in california means a lot to me but at the time trips back here will have to be vacations and what not. All my holidays will be spent with my family in ohio : ) (you know how good it feels to know that I will be able to spend any holiday I want with my family as long as my job allows it : ) )

Anyways...im not sure what else to write other than the next 24 days need to hurry up and get here so maybe I wont be so lonely anymore and the next 32 days need to hurry up so I can peace out of here and start the next chapter of my life. I cant wait to see what happens for me : )

peace. love. change.
sio