A week of frustration...

well well well its friday, which means an end to my week of frustration...hopefully.

I really dont know what has gotten into me lately but i will be the first to admit this week was filled with many mental breakdowns to the point where i just had to let out a good cry, wipe my tears, and move on.

heres the deal...

1. My job.

My job that i once loved with everything in me has turned into a chore. I dont enjoy it (not saying I dont like being a nanny or this family) buuuuuuuut i dont enjoy being a nanny for this family anymore and it hurts. This family has been mine for 3 years and I have been so thankful for everything they have done for me and any opportunity I have been given and everything they have taught me will be packed up amongst my belongings and making the move to nc with me as well. This job just isnt for me anymore and the fact that im here another month stresses me out because things wont be getting better until I turn off of honeycomb lane onto hidden valley one last time. Okay just typing that makes me sad!! anyways..

2. School

School is one thing that actually frustrated me at first but now things are good. Im doing really well and I have almost everything done for the semseter which is a good thing. I only have one more english paper to write and a cheat sheet for math as well as the practice final and i am DONE with my first year of college. whoa. thats weird to say or type in this matter....buuuuut i know that I have a lot more schooling ahead of me. The thing that is frustrating about school is that i do not know what i want to go for anymore so im kind of at a stand still but ill get through it!!

3. My mouth

This just might be the most frustrating thing going on in my life right now. Working for the conner family I was lucky to have medical and dental insurance tossed in with the deal. Well I got braces. And now im stuck. Im leaving the job, as everyone knows, which means Im leaving the insurance which means im either insurance shopping or paying for the rest of my grill out of pocket. Sounds easy, right? Yeah except every ortho ive talked to in charlotte wants 4 or 5 grand for my treatment even though i already have the braces on AND every insurance company i call doesnt offer insurance for orthodontics to individuals which is me. So im working on that and hopefully I start working harder, ive really got to figure it out.

Anyways...thats whats going on in my life, if you were wondering, well now you know.

Oh and Sunday is my 3rd mothers day. So weird.

peace. love. and frustration.
Sio