sooo ive been really emotional lately...and its not cool :( I guess its normal though, but when it comes down to it, i miss my family. Thats why i am so emotional. I know that its a part of life to miss people you move away from but really since I have moved out here to california I have missed out on so much
My sisters arent getting any younger and I miss them so much.
I am so proud of my brother who finally put one foot in front of the other and is going to college. Im so thankful for my parents, all of them, who have helped me out with so much. They have all helped me get through tough times even if I just need advice.
I was talking to my cousin today who is 16 and a junior in high school. I havent really talked to her a lot lately but I just happened to be signed into facebook, which is weird cause im NEVER on facebook, and she sent me a message joking around about us getting matching cars because she needs a new one and in order for me to move home I need a new one as well. Anyways. She got in a wreck on wednesday, she was pulling out of a gas station and some one ran into her, technically its my cousins fault cause she pulled out but she said she didnt see the car coming and she doesnt think the car even tried to stop because there were no skid marks on the road or no sign of the car trying to swerve out of the way. Steph (cousin) also told me that the car proceeded to reverse and run into her again, umm wtf? soo anyways stephs airbags went off and her first thought was "oh man, mom and dad are going to kill me" obviously they didnt because shes still around to tell me the story. Steph also told me that when she was trying to get the door open to get out she couldnt and she started thinking she was hurt so bad she was just going to die...that broke my heart...thats when the tears started coming. She told me that when she finally got out and the other girl was out as well she had her phone in her hand, yeah steph had no idea where hers was so my guess the girl was texting while she was driving thats why she still had her phone and thats why there were no skid marks because she didnt try to stop because she was trying to text instead of drive. Anyways...I asked steph if her parents were mad because she kept telling me that the whole time she thought they were gonna be so mad...but of course they werent mad, how could they be? their daughter was hurt in the hospital..they couldnt be mad...and this is what really got me..she said "they were just happy the car was gone and not me". Of course any parent would be happy a car was gone rather than their child but i just lost it...the tears started coming and i realized at that moment that i miss my family more than anything. I dont know what I would have done if my cousin was taken because of a car crash. I would have been a mess. Im just so scared that the worst is going to happen to anyone in my family and im all the way out in california.
I need change....stat.
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