I decided from now on instead of getting upset or down or sad or whatever you want to call it, im going to keep my head up. Keeping my head up because I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Things are going to get better for me, I can tell. I cant be a debbie downer anymore...I know there are people out there that would kill to see me fail miserably but I cant let that happen. I have little eyes watching my every move, listening to my every word and looking up to me as a role model and what kind of role model would I be if i was sad and depressed all the time? not a very good one..
Eh em. I would like to apologize for my posts being so bi-polar lately...sometimes Im happy..sometimes im sad and sometimes im just blah. Bare with me...we all have our moments and if you dont then im not sure you are normal.
I have two weeks and half a day until I go to north carolina. I am pretty excited about that. Ill get to see my Aunt who I havent seen since christmas which actually isnt that bad because it was a year before that I saw her last...anyways and ill get to spend the whooole weekend with mattchu. Mattchu i will say is such a trooper for putting up with my good moods, my bad moods and my inbetween moods and for that....I <3 him.
I have 10 weeks until I will be living in North Carolina...charlotte to be exact for those creepers out there, and no im not telling you my new address...but anyways...10 weeks seems like a long time but its really not...its going to go by fast I know..look at all that has happened in the last 10 weeks....Abby turned 21, Jenn thought she was deploying but didnt, Diaz did deploy for a year, Matt came home from a year long deployment, Emma turned 2 annnnnd everything else that has happened....so 10 weeks isnt a big deal to me...bring it on...bring on the work days, the work outs, the homework, the finals, my moms visiting and the visits with matt, bring it on :) as each one comes and goes it will be closer to the time I move..
..which brings me to my next note....i am so scared. Im scared to leave whats been normal to me for 3 years...yes 3 years. Ive been in the conner family for 3 years and I love them all very much. The Lamberts (kellys family) adopted me in as one of their own and its like im leaving home all over again. Wont be as hard because im not leaving my REAL family but its gonna be an emotional moment to leave this family as well as my amazing friends. Ive met a lot of characters out here and I wouldnt trade them for anyone else....ahh snap. im gonna miss this!
Peace. Love. Better days,
Sio
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