Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Time to wind down...and blog :)

I know I know I havent really been good at the everyday thing but sometimes its hard to come up with stuff to write everyday and honestly, im pretty sure no one reads this anyways so whats the point?

Wellllll thanksgiving was good...we had dinner here and chucks brother and his family came over and stayed for a few days, Saturday we all went to Knotts berry farm for Jimmys going away, we had a lot of fun and Emma go to ride the carousel and had loads of fun! Sunday jimmy left for boot camp and tears were shed from dear old nannys eyes, its so sad hes like a brother to me and ive seen him grow up for the past 2 years and that he has, im going to miss him so much!

Oh man...i miss him :( I think im going to go shed some more tears before bed time...

Siobhan

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Today is Thanksgiving :)

Which means its a day to be Thankful and that I am :)

I have an amazing family in Ohio who loves me 1900 miles away and a family that has treated me as their own for the past 2.5 years. I also have the most amazing daughter ever, I am so thankful she is healthy and smart and funny and everything else that children her age are :)

I hope everyone had an amazing day!

Much love,
Siobhan

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

ive been a horrible blogger...

So much is going on in my life, it isnt even funny. I know I might say that a lot but really there is so much going on I dont even know where to begin. Theres a lot I am dealing with personally that I would rather not talk about or bore you with and there is a lot going on with my family that I work for. And really when it all comes down to it I want to tell you everything, I want to share my every worry, my every concern and my every fear but im not so sure I can trust you...can i?

I have trusted so many people in my life and in the end ive learned they couldnt be trusted at all. Even some of my closest friends have betrayed me and im not even sure they know that I know they did. Sad huh?

I wanna say more but id rather get out and jog rather than be sad...but ill get back to blogging hopefully daily and if not, every other day :)

Siobhan

Monday, November 23, 2009

I need change.

I need change now more than I have ever needed it in my entire life. Im not comfortable in my own skin, I am not happy when I look in the mirror and most importantly i am not happy when I look around and there is no one there.



Okay yeah, living in a house with 10 people there is ALWAYS someone there. But theres never someone there as much as I need them to be. My life has changed so much this year it isnt even funny, actually when I look back I start to cry just thinking about all the people that have come and gone and come back again...or the people that have gone and dont plan on coming back. I go through moments in time where i decide that I need change and I "delete" negativity from my life. Meaning I delete people from my phone, myspace, and facebook...just so I have no way to contact anyone that brought negativity to my life and so there is no way that they can see whats going on in my life.....well im running out of negativity. Im not happy with most things in life but I cant find a reason or a person that is causing it but myself. It breaks my heart, I have no idea why im not happy yet im not.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I just wanna blog..

Theres so much I want to tell everyone but at the same time i know you dont care....why waste my time? and besides its none of your business...

good night.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

October is almost gone...until next year.

I really dont know the point of the title for this post, its just running through my head, I have 2 more full days of october and its over. Where has this year gone? Just 8 months ago Emma turned one, ONE I tell you...one year old...now in 4 months she will be 2. My little baby girl will be 2!

I know im not the only person that feels their life is going by fast but really mine is going really fast, promise. I have so much going on in my life, some good/positive some bad/negative and some that I hate dealing with because its ridiculous. I cant wait for things to go my way for once so I can have complete happiness and no stress, will that day ever come?

Thats really all I have to say.

Monday, October 19, 2009

My life isnt easy, but im not complaining :)

My life is far from easy, just like yours, like one of my fellow bloggers wrote in her blog a few weeks ago.."if life was good we would all be good at it" or something like that, anyways you get the point.

Anyways...heres my life in a nutshell the past 2 years...oh and idk why im doing this i just feel like seeing it in front of my face.

Two weeks after graduation I moved out to california to be a nanny for the sole purpose of getting away from ohio. Theres nothing wrong with ohio, except the snow and the rain haha oh and the face that there was really nothing for me there....i wanted nothing to do with college at the time, i just wanted out of the small town with all of the people with their small town mentality. Its so funny to me since I have moved out here i have really come to realize how closed minded and mean and hateful people in my town and high school really were....High school was a cruel cruel world for me and im so thankful I never have to go back, anyways im getting side tracked.

I moved out here and joined the Conner Family. Which at the time consisted of Chuck, Kelly, James Danyele and Charlie. Danyele was only here half time because she lived with her mother in redlands and James moved in the same time I did from their moms. At this time we found out Kelly was pregnant with a baby boy who they named Hunter. Hunter was born in november at the time Charlie was turning 1. My job was pretty much easy that summer and up until Kelly had Hunter. She only worked monday-thursday and was home every night. I did really have friends out here that summer besides Brandy who is a friend from ohio also working as a nanny in Southern california, so between Kelly and Brandy I kept myself pretty occupied. Well later in the summer I found out that I was pregnant and would be having a baby at the begining of march 2008. I was scared, scared to death but at the same time I was excited. I was excited because I was going to have a daughter and I was going to get to share a mother daughter bond with someone sooner than I had ever imagined. Being so young and pregnant was never something to be proud of, I wasnt with Emmas father, we didnt talk and I knew that if I was going to have a child it was going to be on my own and I was okay with that I really was. Everytime I got sad or would rethink it I just told myself hey, my mom did this by herself half the time with two kids so i think I can handle one. My family is full of very strong willed women and I knew that with a little faith and hope and help from my friends and family I could do anything I wanted.

Well hunter was born in November and I was 3.5 months away from having my own baby. Charlie and hunter both taught me so much about being a parent and taking care of a newborn. I didnt have many problems with my pregnancy so I was able to work until the end of february 2008 and then Nanny Samantha took over. My mother and brandy were in the delivery room with me which was a blast and you would know that if you knew my relationship with my mom as well as with brandy. Oh and i experienced my first earthquake haha! Anyways at the end of march courtney came out here and helped me move emma and I home to ohio so I could focus on us and work and save up money as well as allow someone else to tend to Charlie and hunter like they needed.

Yeah so I moved home, got a job at vancrest health care center taking care of the old folks which I loved as well as the girls i worked with :) Then July came around and I was given the opportunity to move back to california and work again as the nanny for the Conner Family which i took because again ohio wasnt for me. So blah blah blah nothing too exciting happened or nothing really needed to be posted for everyone to see haha Lets just saw California has been waaaaaaaay fun for me the second time around. I wasnt pregnant, I was older, I had more friends and had the time to go out and do things. The job was a bit more tougher because Danyele moved up here, hunter and charlie were getting older, Kelly and chuck were both working full time so were gone for days at a time which left me to take care of the household when they were gone which is okay, i handled it just like any other nanny would.

Time went by, I met a lot of amazing people who have turned into the best of friends and I loved like I never thought I could before. Two years later I went back to college, I have done a good job at saving money for both emma and I and our future together. Going back to school has always been important to me and I feel that this year was the right time for me to go back. Kelly Lambert and Chuck are no longer together but he met an amazing woman who is also named Kelly. Her and her two children moved in with us a couple weeks ago and I can honestly say I think it has turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to anyone involved. Yeah we have our little fights and disagreements but for the most part we are having so much fun as a family that consists of ten people, Chuck, Kelly, Me, Maddie (who is the best roommate) James, Cory, Danyele, Charlie, Hunter and Emma, All one big happy (for the most part) Family. Dont get me wrong these fools havent replaced my family but they are the best family I could have away from home.

This blog totally makes my life sound super easy. But really its not, Life is hard, its not always fair and its not always what you want it to be. Being a nanny is hard and tiring and takes a lot out of you but I love it just because I get to spend all of my time with Emma. Im a stay at home mom, student and nanny for an awesome family and right now at this point in my life I wouldnt have it any other way :)

Thats enough for now.
Much love
Sio

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Things are good.

Sooo its been awhile since I have posted.
Ive had good days ive had bad days but i finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. What has happened in the past month isnt the end of the world, people deal with break ups everyday and ive realized im not the first or last woman that will go through it, so really im okay.

Things have been going good for me...Kelly and her children are all moved in. Maddie and I are the best of room mates ever :) I love having her around its nice for someone to keep me company besides babies, we have a lot of fun together just being dumb.

soo thats really all I have to say....

yep. thats it.
Good night.

Monday, October 5, 2009

I should be getting ready...

But i dont feel like it just yet. Oh ps. i decided i really need to proof read my posts before i actually submit them, sorry about all the mistakes and what not in the last post but i guess this isnt a college essay so it doesnt have to be perfect:)

not much has happened. my life was turned upside down and around and all sorts of stuff has been going on but lets not talk about that......Kelly, Maddie and Cory moved in this weekend! Oh so fun to have a big family. It was very stressful in the begining but now we are working on getting everyone and everything settled and surprisingly we've almost got it! I hope everyone learns to love it here, i hope we all get along, i dont like to fight with people i just like to live life and do what we do....

okay so this isnt long but i felt like posting something, im going to go get ready now, really i am.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

i've been slacking but a lot has gone on :/

It so weird, Im only 20 years old but I want to live my life like im 25 or older. I want to get married, I want to have more babies and i want to just live my life free of worrying about when the next chapter in my life will begin. I have been blessed to have the people in my life that I do have and I am thankful for everything each and every one of my friends and everything they do for me, its only been 2 weeks since I have posted but it feels like so much longer. My computer keyboard has bee messing up so i have been avoiding blogging or emailing because it is very frustrating, anyways let me catch you up.

umm lets see my last post was on the 8th, what has happened since then?

1. the day after that emma turned 18 months old :) She seems to be getting so old to me yet she is oh so young. She now knows how to give "high fives" and pound fists with people as a way to greet haha its so funny. I have come to the realization that no matter how frustrated I get with my life and my job and kids Emma and I will always need eachother so its a good idea to stop worrying about myself so much and focus on more mommy and me time. I love my little girl she means the world to me and I would hate to miss any milestones because im frustrated with life and just want to be alone.

2. on the 12th the family went to huntington beach! We had so much fun and the babies loved it as well especially Emma. She like the water the boys liked playing in the sand haha. Im glad my daughter is very outgoing like her mama even though she is a big baby sometimes haha afterwards I went to the LA county fair with matt and his mother and sister to get my fix of fair food :) it was so exciting just because i havent been to the fair since I have been out here so it was fun to finally go, totally different from the fairs back home, maybe different isnt the right word but out here they go ALL out haha

3.Kim and I through a 40th birthday party for Chuck with plenty of help from Kelly (yes his girlfriend happens to have the same name as the exgirlfriend). The party went pretty good, gotta outta control towards the end but for the most part everything went well.

some other stuff happened but i really dont feel like talking about it haha thats just me, OH YEAH! last week matt and I joined the edwards and went to the body world exhibit in SD, very interesting, everyone should go but hurry cause its over on the 4th!

okay but really i planned on blogging like hard core tonight but now im just getting tired, its almost midnight and i need my beauty sleep :)

Much love,
sio

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

My Ed plan.

Well, today I went to VVC to stand in line to make an appointment to talk to a counselor to figure out my ed plan. Lucky me, I got in today and now I have it, in my hands ready for me to complete everything written on it and then some. As of right now I have decided to head towards a degree in Business, sounds like a good idea to me considering its something I know I would be interested in. The counselor said if I finish what is required of my I can graduate from VVC in 2011 with an associates in business and from there finish my schooling down at CSUSB.

Anyways, enough about schooling. This week, even though we are only 2 days into it is going as good as it should be, nothing out of the norm. Working, studying and cleaning like its cool. I have found I like a clean house and I am constantly cleaning up after little children everywhere they go....to be honest I kind of like it but at the end of the day I am glad only one of those children is mine :)

Mya has turned into a full time house dog, not sure how chuck feels about that but its what she is. She of course goes outside to do her business but other than that shes an inside dog. Emma has grown to like her, when the other kids are with their mom emma can be found in a corner with the dog petting or hugging her :) Okay so after that last smile I have realized that I do that a lot, hope that doesnt annoy anyone, i just like to smile :) oops there i did it again haha okay sooo this is really all I have to say, I am going to take a nap while the 3 musketeers nap since I am done cleaning for the most part today, just a few odds and ends things that need too be tended to and then I will be making spaghetti for dinner....yummmmmm

Much love
Sio

Monday, September 7, 2009

Its been so long...

March 4th, wow that was my last blog, honestly when i made this blog for myself i was like I PROMISE IM GOING TO WRITE EVERYDAY, well in this case type but anyways its obvious that I havent but now more than ever I feel the need to blog. When you think about it blogs are weird, like really who wants everyone reading their personal business better yet who wants to share it, well I have an answer, this girl. Yep, thats right I do. I love to talk to people about my goals, feelings, dreams, wishes, accomplishments and you guessed it, problems. Sooooooo let me catch you up on my life, to whoever is reading :)

I met a boyyy, a long time ago actually. On St. Patricks day. His name is Matt and I couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. This may sound cliche but he is truly the cheese to my macaroni. He makes me laugh so much to the point of tears when I dont even want to smile. He deals with my good days, my bad days, my sad days and yep my bitch mode days. He truly is a trooper to be able to deal with everything that goes on in my life but at the end of the day he can still say "I love you Siobhan, and mean it, atleast I think he does :) Matt and I have been dating for some time now and even though we have our ups and downs I cant wait to see what the future holds for us. Oh P.S. Emma loves matt as much as I do :)

Now about Emma girl, she is 18 months old on the 9th, yeah freaking crazy I dont even know where the past year and a half have gone. I miss my newborn baby girl, the one that I could cuddle with at night and rock to sleep, the one that needed me more than anything, yeah dont get me wrong I know Emma needs me but now shes a big girl, she doesnt want mommy to hold her like a baby or rock her to sleep or any of that silly "baby" stuff anymore. She's a big girl and thats all there is to it, so she thinks!

I really dont know what else to fill you in on, so much has happened some I want to write about but then at the same time its stuff thats none of my business to go telling ha I know some of you are like WOW Siobhan isnt going to tell us about something going on in someone elses life? BUMMER! haha Anyways im just going to put it out there now that my blogspot is boooooooring! I want to jazz it up, make it look cute, if anyone knows how PLEAAAAAAAASE let me know.

kthanks
Sio

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I have been sucked into the blog world..

I dont know how it happened or why but I stumbled on some blogs and started reading and decided hmmm....this is what I need. So here it is, my blog, my very own blog. In this blog I shall annoy you with every single boring sometimes exciting deatails of my life...trust me..life as a nanny isnt easy but someone has to do it! well its 10 here and i just thought I would post just to say I did...so here you go..i posted on my blog...my very own blog. that I created 2 minutes ago..thanks for reading.
kthanks.
Sio