Im getting my wisdom teeth taken out today....
'nough said.
peace out
siobhan
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
My family is so far away :(
sooo ive been really emotional lately...and its not cool :( I guess its normal though, but when it comes down to it, i miss my family. Thats why i am so emotional. I know that its a part of life to miss people you move away from but really since I have moved out here to california I have missed out on so much
My sisters arent getting any younger and I miss them so much.
I am so proud of my brother who finally put one foot in front of the other and is going to college. Im so thankful for my parents, all of them, who have helped me out with so much. They have all helped me get through tough times even if I just need advice.
I was talking to my cousin today who is 16 and a junior in high school. I havent really talked to her a lot lately but I just happened to be signed into facebook, which is weird cause im NEVER on facebook, and she sent me a message joking around about us getting matching cars because she needs a new one and in order for me to move home I need a new one as well. Anyways. She got in a wreck on wednesday, she was pulling out of a gas station and some one ran into her, technically its my cousins fault cause she pulled out but she said she didnt see the car coming and she doesnt think the car even tried to stop because there were no skid marks on the road or no sign of the car trying to swerve out of the way. Steph (cousin) also told me that the car proceeded to reverse and run into her again, umm wtf? soo anyways stephs airbags went off and her first thought was "oh man, mom and dad are going to kill me" obviously they didnt because shes still around to tell me the story. Steph also told me that when she was trying to get the door open to get out she couldnt and she started thinking she was hurt so bad she was just going to die...that broke my heart...thats when the tears started coming. She told me that when she finally got out and the other girl was out as well she had her phone in her hand, yeah steph had no idea where hers was so my guess the girl was texting while she was driving thats why she still had her phone and thats why there were no skid marks because she didnt try to stop because she was trying to text instead of drive. Anyways...I asked steph if her parents were mad because she kept telling me that the whole time she thought they were gonna be so mad...but of course they werent mad, how could they be? their daughter was hurt in the hospital..they couldnt be mad...and this is what really got me..she said "they were just happy the car was gone and not me". Of course any parent would be happy a car was gone rather than their child but i just lost it...the tears started coming and i realized at that moment that i miss my family more than anything. I dont know what I would have done if my cousin was taken because of a car crash. I would have been a mess. Im just so scared that the worst is going to happen to anyone in my family and im all the way out in california.
I need change....stat.
My sisters arent getting any younger and I miss them so much.
I am so proud of my brother who finally put one foot in front of the other and is going to college. Im so thankful for my parents, all of them, who have helped me out with so much. They have all helped me get through tough times even if I just need advice.
I was talking to my cousin today who is 16 and a junior in high school. I havent really talked to her a lot lately but I just happened to be signed into facebook, which is weird cause im NEVER on facebook, and she sent me a message joking around about us getting matching cars because she needs a new one and in order for me to move home I need a new one as well. Anyways. She got in a wreck on wednesday, she was pulling out of a gas station and some one ran into her, technically its my cousins fault cause she pulled out but she said she didnt see the car coming and she doesnt think the car even tried to stop because there were no skid marks on the road or no sign of the car trying to swerve out of the way. Steph (cousin) also told me that the car proceeded to reverse and run into her again, umm wtf? soo anyways stephs airbags went off and her first thought was "oh man, mom and dad are going to kill me" obviously they didnt because shes still around to tell me the story. Steph also told me that when she was trying to get the door open to get out she couldnt and she started thinking she was hurt so bad she was just going to die...that broke my heart...thats when the tears started coming. She told me that when she finally got out and the other girl was out as well she had her phone in her hand, yeah steph had no idea where hers was so my guess the girl was texting while she was driving thats why she still had her phone and thats why there were no skid marks because she didnt try to stop because she was trying to text instead of drive. Anyways...I asked steph if her parents were mad because she kept telling me that the whole time she thought they were gonna be so mad...but of course they werent mad, how could they be? their daughter was hurt in the hospital..they couldnt be mad...and this is what really got me..she said "they were just happy the car was gone and not me". Of course any parent would be happy a car was gone rather than their child but i just lost it...the tears started coming and i realized at that moment that i miss my family more than anything. I dont know what I would have done if my cousin was taken because of a car crash. I would have been a mess. Im just so scared that the worst is going to happen to anyone in my family and im all the way out in california.
I need change....stat.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
In life I have learned......
That no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
That you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
That regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.
That making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life.
That life sometimes gives you a second chance.
That you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back.
That whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.---that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.
That every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
That people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
That I still have a lot to learn
My hero wears combat boots :)
This is jenn..yes I know you have all read about her in my previous posts but I just thought i would take time out of my busy to day to post about her yet again, I love her and im so proud to call her one of my best friends!!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Two in one day :)
okay I know i already posted but I decided i wanted to open up to people and at the same time i dont even know if ANYONE reads my blog so i might just be typing to type haha
Im lost. Im confused. Im in love. Im a mother. Im a student. Im scared. Im a nanny. Im a best friend. Im a giver. Im a taker. Im a lover. I have dreams. I have morals. I have goals. I have everything and nothing at all.
Im lost and confused on what to do in life. Im so scared that what im doing now isnt going to be what i want to do tomorrow. Im in love with california and my friends out here. I dream big dreams of succeeding and doing things no one thought i could do before. I have goals of giving my daughter things i was never able to have growing up...I have everything right where i want things but then at the end of the day i feel like i am empty handed and i just want to break down and cry...I have become very emotional lately and i really couldnt tell you why. Everything as been getting to me emotionally. Its so hard being here in california away from everything that was normal to me for 18 years.
Yeah i have friends here but they are just a walk down the street like ohio, one of my best friends lives in San Diego and my other best friend is deploying soon! I know i posted a blog about her not to long ago but it still bothers me. Shes like one of my sisters, heck weve tried to devise a plan so i could deploy for her, everyone thinks we look alike so why dont we put it to the test! haha She came over the other day so i could take her out to dinner for her 22nd birthday and she brought a lot of her stuff shes getting rid of while shes gone and it broke my heart, i didnt let her see my cry when she was here but when she left thats exactly what i did. I miss her now because we dont hang out as much I dont know what im going to do when i cant text her for something or see what shes doing because i know what she will be doing...defending my freedom. Im so lucky to have such great friends...some I have had for 10 years some I have had for 3 and some I just met last month. I could ask for better friends and I thank you all for being there for me.
okay I think thats enough for now.
much love
sio
Im lost. Im confused. Im in love. Im a mother. Im a student. Im scared. Im a nanny. Im a best friend. Im a giver. Im a taker. Im a lover. I have dreams. I have morals. I have goals. I have everything and nothing at all.
Im lost and confused on what to do in life. Im so scared that what im doing now isnt going to be what i want to do tomorrow. Im in love with california and my friends out here. I dream big dreams of succeeding and doing things no one thought i could do before. I have goals of giving my daughter things i was never able to have growing up...I have everything right where i want things but then at the end of the day i feel like i am empty handed and i just want to break down and cry...I have become very emotional lately and i really couldnt tell you why. Everything as been getting to me emotionally. Its so hard being here in california away from everything that was normal to me for 18 years.
Yeah i have friends here but they are just a walk down the street like ohio, one of my best friends lives in San Diego and my other best friend is deploying soon! I know i posted a blog about her not to long ago but it still bothers me. Shes like one of my sisters, heck weve tried to devise a plan so i could deploy for her, everyone thinks we look alike so why dont we put it to the test! haha She came over the other day so i could take her out to dinner for her 22nd birthday and she brought a lot of her stuff shes getting rid of while shes gone and it broke my heart, i didnt let her see my cry when she was here but when she left thats exactly what i did. I miss her now because we dont hang out as much I dont know what im going to do when i cant text her for something or see what shes doing because i know what she will be doing...defending my freedom. Im so lucky to have such great friends...some I have had for 10 years some I have had for 3 and some I just met last month. I could ask for better friends and I thank you all for being there for me.
okay I think thats enough for now.
much love
sio
Bring on the rain.
okay seriously...is God giving me all this rain because i said im sick of the desert? I said I wanna go home once...is he sending all the rain because it rains in ohio so maybe this will remind me of ohio? Well God...you can stop now, ive had enough and I think all of southern california has as well....so really thanks but no thanks :)
Honestly california has gotten more rain in the past 4 days than I have ever experienced out here in the past 3 years. Its nice for a change, we got to turn the sprinklers off so the rain is going to hopefully turn our grass green but really I think im okay if the rain would just stop right now...I wanna ride my bike, I wanna go for a walk but I cant :(
Today I took the kids out to lunch at wendys. I know some of you that know how kids are or know that the kids i take care of out of control probably think I have joined them. It went well surprisingly. I think I might start doing that weekly...maybe not always fast food. I dont want to promote obeseity. But anyways...today while they were eating their happy meals I just observed them and realize wow, these kids arent that bad. They just need time and attention and they dont always get that when there are so many people in our house. I realized that I have played a major role in their lives and that makes my heart smile knowing that im helping a child become who they are. I love these kids and I think im pretty lucky as a nanny to have found such a great family to work for even though we have our ups and downs and I have days I wanna quit :) I know this blog is random and pointless but since my stupid phone isnt working I have nothing better to do lol. anyways thats really all I have to say.
peace out-
-sio
Honestly california has gotten more rain in the past 4 days than I have ever experienced out here in the past 3 years. Its nice for a change, we got to turn the sprinklers off so the rain is going to hopefully turn our grass green but really I think im okay if the rain would just stop right now...I wanna ride my bike, I wanna go for a walk but I cant :(
Today I took the kids out to lunch at wendys. I know some of you that know how kids are or know that the kids i take care of out of control probably think I have joined them. It went well surprisingly. I think I might start doing that weekly...maybe not always fast food. I dont want to promote obeseity. But anyways...today while they were eating their happy meals I just observed them and realize wow, these kids arent that bad. They just need time and attention and they dont always get that when there are so many people in our house. I realized that I have played a major role in their lives and that makes my heart smile knowing that im helping a child become who they are. I love these kids and I think im pretty lucky as a nanny to have found such a great family to work for even though we have our ups and downs and I have days I wanna quit :) I know this blog is random and pointless but since my stupid phone isnt working I have nothing better to do lol. anyways thats really all I have to say.
peace out-
-sio
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Tomorrow is monday again..
And this monday is going to be different.
Yes, its a holiday but beyond that this is the monday that im seriously going to get serious about my workout plan. Im by no means fat or over weight but I have a goal, and I want to meet that goal so reach the confidence level I would like to be at.
I Siobhan am going to do the following (well I want to so im gonna try hard)
1. NO MORE EATING OUT...thats a hard one for me sometimes because its so easy although I have cut way back.
2. No soda at all...which isnt hard because I drink water all the time anyways.
3. Workout everyday for atleast an hour, maybe two..I have a bike that I can start using more and a gym membership that needs to be put to good use.
4. Last but not least I need to stop eating so much junk.. I dont eat candy and stuff like that but I eat food that I could go without sometimes.
Anyways thats enough about that..lets talk about what has been going on.
I went to the dentist as well as the orthodontist this week and things are good. January 26th i will be going into the dentist to have my wisdom teeth pulled so I can start the process to have braces. I have made the decision that I would like to make my smile better although I love it how it is now i think it could be better.
Not much has been going on besides this stuff...thanks for reading.
much love
Sio <3
Yes, its a holiday but beyond that this is the monday that im seriously going to get serious about my workout plan. Im by no means fat or over weight but I have a goal, and I want to meet that goal so reach the confidence level I would like to be at.
I Siobhan am going to do the following (well I want to so im gonna try hard)
1. NO MORE EATING OUT...thats a hard one for me sometimes because its so easy although I have cut way back.
2. No soda at all...which isnt hard because I drink water all the time anyways.
3. Workout everyday for atleast an hour, maybe two..I have a bike that I can start using more and a gym membership that needs to be put to good use.
4. Last but not least I need to stop eating so much junk.. I dont eat candy and stuff like that but I eat food that I could go without sometimes.
Anyways thats enough about that..lets talk about what has been going on.
I went to the dentist as well as the orthodontist this week and things are good. January 26th i will be going into the dentist to have my wisdom teeth pulled so I can start the process to have braces. I have made the decision that I would like to make my smile better although I love it how it is now i think it could be better.
Not much has been going on besides this stuff...thanks for reading.
much love
Sio <3
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
horrible blogger award goes too.......ME
I am seriously horrible at this whole blog thing...stuff happens that i want to post about i just dont..and then when i sit down to write i forget everything that i wanted to write...hmmmm wierd.
Anyways, this week has been okay, just hanging out relaxing and doing what i do, besides playing nanny because i am off for the week :) :) <---yes two smiles were needed because having time to myself is the best feeling EVER!
anyways enough of this, ive got nothing to say besides the fact that im super excited for AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!
peace sucka.
Anyways, this week has been okay, just hanging out relaxing and doing what i do, besides playing nanny because i am off for the week :) :) <---yes two smiles were needed because having time to myself is the best feeling EVER!
anyways enough of this, ive got nothing to say besides the fact that im super excited for AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!
peace sucka.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Its monday...ugh.
Oh here it is, the oh so dreaded monday. Im not really sure why I hate mondays considering I dont have a normal work week that starts on monday, it just starts whenever.
The first couple days of the new year have been good, i havent done much at all really....spent most of my weekend in bed. A lot is going on in my life that upsets me...idk why i let it all upset me, i decided today that im an emotional basketcase....thats why :)
One of my best friends is getting ready for a year long deployment...yeah I said it, a year. Oh snap, I am seriously going to miss her...shes going to come back 23 years old and we will be getting ready to celebrate my 22nd...shes not going to be here for my 21st which would be our first time to legally drink together which upsets me...shes going to miss emmas second birthday, hunters 3rd and charlies 4th...i know your wondering why i included them but i did because shes a member of this family. Since the day I introduced her to my family everyone fell in love with her...shes such a good person with a good heart ready and willing to do whatever she has to do to get the job done. Most importantly shes a U.S. Marine...shes my hero. Jenn is such a strong woman I know shes going to be just fine...Im just scared. Im not really sure how im going to make it through the year with out her...i mean yeah okay i have other friends and i know ill get along just fine but its going to suck.
I think im going to go before the tears come rolling in even more...ill write more..promise.
Love always..
Jenns best friend.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
The time has come for a new year, I think its time for a new me :)
Okay so like always its been awhile since I have posted and I dont know what to say....ive been doing a lot of soul searching and my 10 day trip to ohio helped me more than I ever thought it would, usually I hate going home because its so boring and lonely and cold but this was one of the best times ive ever been home.
Anyways, its a new year time for a new me and I can honestly say I cant wait to see what 2010 has to offer me. In 2009 and years past I have been blessed with amazing friends and family and of course being a part of my daughters everyday life. She is getting so big and so smart I cant wait to see what will come of the year ahead of us.
In 2009 I went through a lot and I put myself through even more, I started and ended a relationship and have learned so much about myself since then. Emma turned 1 and has grown so much. Kelly and Chuck went their seperate ways and have found love in other places. Our family here has grown by 3 and I love every minute of it. Ive learned a lot about myself and I have my experiences that I went through to thank for that. James left for boot camp to fulfill his dream of being a United States Marine. I think hes going to be the best of the best :)
hmm so much more has happened, and I cant wait to write about it and let you know about EVERYTHING, but i think theres a time and a place and I would love to give you a reason to come back and read more...
But I will leave you with this...
I wish you all the best of luck in 2010. I can honestly say that I am excited for 2010. I know that its going to be the best year yet and I cant wait to experience it :)
Im so *lucky*
Much love,
Siobhan.
Anyways, its a new year time for a new me and I can honestly say I cant wait to see what 2010 has to offer me. In 2009 and years past I have been blessed with amazing friends and family and of course being a part of my daughters everyday life. She is getting so big and so smart I cant wait to see what will come of the year ahead of us.
In 2009 I went through a lot and I put myself through even more, I started and ended a relationship and have learned so much about myself since then. Emma turned 1 and has grown so much. Kelly and Chuck went their seperate ways and have found love in other places. Our family here has grown by 3 and I love every minute of it. Ive learned a lot about myself and I have my experiences that I went through to thank for that. James left for boot camp to fulfill his dream of being a United States Marine. I think hes going to be the best of the best :)
hmm so much more has happened, and I cant wait to write about it and let you know about EVERYTHING, but i think theres a time and a place and I would love to give you a reason to come back and read more...
But I will leave you with this...
I wish you all the best of luck in 2010. I can honestly say that I am excited for 2010. I know that its going to be the best year yet and I cant wait to experience it :)
Im so *lucky*
Much love,
Siobhan.
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