Today is Thanksgiving :)

Which means its a day to be Thankful and that I am :)

I have an amazing family in Ohio who loves me 1900 miles away and a family that has treated me as their own for the past 2.5 years. I also have the most amazing daughter ever, I am so thankful she is healthy and smart and funny and everything else that children her age are :)

I hope everyone had an amazing day!

Much love,
Siobhan

ive been a horrible blogger...

So much is going on in my life, it isnt even funny. I know I might say that a lot but really there is so much going on I dont even know where to begin. Theres a lot I am dealing with personally that I would rather not talk about or bore you with and there is a lot going on with my family that I work for. And really when it all comes down to it I want to tell you everything, I want to share my every worry, my every concern and my every fear but im not so sure I can trust you...can i?

I have trusted so many people in my life and in the end ive learned they couldnt be trusted at all. Even some of my closest friends have betrayed me and im not even sure they know that I know they did. Sad huh?

I wanna say more but id rather get out and jog rather than be sad...but ill get back to blogging hopefully daily and if not, every other day :)

Siobhan

I need change.

I need change now more than I have ever needed it in my entire life. Im not comfortable in my own skin, I am not happy when I look in the mirror and most importantly i am not happy when I look around and there is no one there.



Okay yeah, living in a house with 10 people there is ALWAYS someone there. But theres never someone there as much as I need them to be. My life has changed so much this year it isnt even funny, actually when I look back I start to cry just thinking about all the people that have come and gone and come back again...or the people that have gone and dont plan on coming back. I go through moments in time where i decide that I need change and I "delete" negativity from my life. Meaning I delete people from my phone, myspace, and facebook...just so I have no way to contact anyone that brought negativity to my life and so there is no way that they can see whats going on in my life.....well im running out of negativity. Im not happy with most things in life but I cant find a reason or a person that is causing it but myself. It breaks my heart, I have no idea why im not happy yet im not.

I just wanna blog..

Theres so much I want to tell everyone but at the same time i know you dont care....why waste my time? and besides its none of your business...

good night.