Now that I have time to blog : )

so sorry its been so long since I have written but now i have found the time to sit down and blog...currently breeze and I are watching 102 dalmations, before this we watched the little mermaid two and last night it was 101 dalmations...oh what i wouldnt give to be 6 years old again.

anyways...let me tell you about my life..
Life is great...it really is.

I got to north carolina on june 14th and so far I dont regret one thing about the move. The family is great, whats expected of me work wise is even better. I havent been this happy in a long time and I hope things keep going the way they have been.

ugh. im getting into this movie, ill write more soon. swear.

so much is new.

okay for real...I KNOW ive been the worst blogger ever but thats because so so so much has gone on. I might consider going into detail later, but know that I am alive and well...in north carolina and loving my new life : )

Mixed emotions....

Sooo theres only 11 full days left of my time in California and it gets harder with each passing day and at the end of each day I have to tell myself....This was my choice..I live the life I choose.

Ive had a good run in california and I wouldnt trade my experiences for anything..ive had the best of times with the greatest friends and im going to miss everything and everyone..

thats really all i have to say for now I guess..

in case you are wondering since ive been MIA from the blog world...Im doing okay.

peace. love. moving.
sio

Two weeks : )

Matt will be here in 1 hour...oh at this time in two weeks : )

Anyways, since I only have 2 weeks until he is here i better get these other things on my to do list done!

11. work on my research paper
12. make sure all of my stuff is ready to move or already at my new house!
13. clean out the nanny mobile
14. have a garage sale
15. call my banks and have my address change
16. figure out what all there is to do when matt will be here
17. see as many people as possible
18. have as much fun as possible
19. cry a lot (its going to happen)
20. take my change to the bank
21. TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES!!!!!!

Yeah, that last one is a must that must be done.

soo umm thats my life for the next 2.5 ish weeks. Can you believe it? I will be 21 in less than 3 weeks. weird I know

peace. love. pictures
-sio

21 things to do before I turn 21 : )

Okay so today is monday, and my birthday is on Monday june 7th so that means I have exactly three weeks until I turn 21...21 days until im 21 and im sure I can come up with 21 things to do before i turn 21 so here goes..

1.Go to the San Diego Zoo (check off my list after saturday)
2.Get my hair cut
3. Get a pedicure
4. and manicure
5. Have a garage sale
6. pick up matt from the airport (if I remember)
7. Finish up school
8. Weekend in Los Angeles
9. VEGAS (wait, im headed there the day I turn 21, does that count?)
10. Clean my room

okay...well that was too much work so im going to make this a 2 part series...ill have more when I think of more : )

peace. love. and 21
Sio

A day away from the HD

Well yesterday was May 15th 2010. The day that I had dedicated to go to Bolsa Chica State Park in Huntington Beach to walk a 5k (which was a 10k last year) for Cystic Fibrosis. Scottie Somers is who our team walks for and the best part is, he always walks with us : ) It was so good to see scottie and catch up and for him to see emma again considering he hasnt seen her since she was a month old.

Anyways...we did the walk and decided against the beach because it was too windy and emma was super duper tired to we made the journey back to Alex's house and hung out by the pool in his apartment complex and let emma play before we put her back in the dreaded carseat that she hates to be in for so long sometimes. After we enjoyed the pool we made the journey back to the HD and hung out for a little bit before jenn went home and soon after alex went home as well.

That was my saturday in a nutshell and heres my sunday.
Im sick. Im tired. Im bored. Im upset. Im scared. And with all this aside I couldnt be happier with my life. Im ready to take on what is about to happen in my life and im excited to see what comes my way, you know the things I dont have "planned". In case you didnt know, I have a plan for everything. I feel like I can call the shots on my life and sometimes I am successful, sometimes well not so much.

I also have countdowns for everything...no joke. I have 18 days until I see the best boyfriend ever, WHOA! 21 days until I turn 21 : ) and 26 days left as a California resident. I cant wait in fact I am so excited, I just cant hide it! haha I am a dork, I know. I cant wait to see what North Carolina has in store for me :)

peace. love. east coast.
Sio

p.s. I know what I am going to do for my next tattoo....bet you wish I would tell you!

A song I like : )

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don�t close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose

the days are getting harder : (

So I only have 24 days left as Charlie and Hunters nanny which is realistically less because they will be with their mom some of those days and I have 32 days left as California resident. Im sure its getting old hearing about me moving hearing about my life changing and blah blah blah but I dont care, i dont really write this blog for you, I write it for me, I write it to get stuff off my mind.

I am really excited about my new job and the new opportunities and experiences I will have and as much as I love change, i have to admit im a little on the scared side. What if I get homesick all over again because 17745 honeycomb lane has been my home for 3 years. What if the job is totally not what I am looking for and I end up hating it? I really dont think that is going to happen, I met with Lisa and her family when I was in north carolina and fell in love with them all but at the same time this life has been normal for three years and its weird to think that my daily routine is going to be completely different. Heck im going to be on the opposite side of the country and im going to have to time everything just right if I want to talk to my california friends.

Which brings me to a good point. A lot of people ask me weekly, sometimes daily, "why are you moving to NC". And this is what I want you to know...Because. Thats really the only answer I can give you, because. Because I want to, and because I can oh and most importantly because theres no one here that can stop me.

Im going to miss my friends very much and i mean very very very much. It just might be harder to leave these friends than it was to leave my friends in vw 3 years ago and only because when I left vw I knew that I would be home to visit, I would always have a reason to go back with that reason being family. Obviously everyone i know in california means a lot to me but at the time trips back here will have to be vacations and what not. All my holidays will be spent with my family in ohio : ) (you know how good it feels to know that I will be able to spend any holiday I want with my family as long as my job allows it : ) )

Anyways...im not sure what else to write other than the next 24 days need to hurry up and get here so maybe I wont be so lonely anymore and the next 32 days need to hurry up so I can peace out of here and start the next chapter of my life. I cant wait to see what happens for me : )

peace. love. change.
sio

A week of frustration...

well well well its friday, which means an end to my week of frustration...hopefully.

I really dont know what has gotten into me lately but i will be the first to admit this week was filled with many mental breakdowns to the point where i just had to let out a good cry, wipe my tears, and move on.

heres the deal...

1. My job.

My job that i once loved with everything in me has turned into a chore. I dont enjoy it (not saying I dont like being a nanny or this family) buuuuuuuut i dont enjoy being a nanny for this family anymore and it hurts. This family has been mine for 3 years and I have been so thankful for everything they have done for me and any opportunity I have been given and everything they have taught me will be packed up amongst my belongings and making the move to nc with me as well. This job just isnt for me anymore and the fact that im here another month stresses me out because things wont be getting better until I turn off of honeycomb lane onto hidden valley one last time. Okay just typing that makes me sad!! anyways..

2. School

School is one thing that actually frustrated me at first but now things are good. Im doing really well and I have almost everything done for the semseter which is a good thing. I only have one more english paper to write and a cheat sheet for math as well as the practice final and i am DONE with my first year of college. whoa. thats weird to say or type in this matter....buuuuut i know that I have a lot more schooling ahead of me. The thing that is frustrating about school is that i do not know what i want to go for anymore so im kind of at a stand still but ill get through it!!

3. My mouth

This just might be the most frustrating thing going on in my life right now. Working for the conner family I was lucky to have medical and dental insurance tossed in with the deal. Well I got braces. And now im stuck. Im leaving the job, as everyone knows, which means Im leaving the insurance which means im either insurance shopping or paying for the rest of my grill out of pocket. Sounds easy, right? Yeah except every ortho ive talked to in charlotte wants 4 or 5 grand for my treatment even though i already have the braces on AND every insurance company i call doesnt offer insurance for orthodontics to individuals which is me. So im working on that and hopefully I start working harder, ive really got to figure it out.

Anyways...thats whats going on in my life, if you were wondering, well now you know.

Oh and Sunday is my 3rd mothers day. So weird.

peace. love. and frustration.
Sio

matt needs to wake up..

im only blogging because matt is sleeping and im bored and I like to take breaks in between paragraphs that i am writing on my english paper.

This english paper is about gambling and the cause and effects and what not. welllll its not a research paper so i didnt have to look up facts or statistics which is good buut its hard because i really dont know what gambling is all about. I mean yeah i get it, i get what it does to people and what not but i dont get everything so pretty much im pulling everything that im typing out of my butt. Soooo lets hope that I get a good grade : )

While im on the topic of school, im getting good grades. i owe a lot of thanks to a few people for helping me out when i get frustrated and dont want to do it anymore. Math, for one, is frustrating to me. I hate it. With every passion in my body actually. But, im almost done and I cant wait to be done!

ummm oh and im pretty sure im dropping out. haha okay not really but I hate school, I dont see how im going to survive 4 more years, we will see I guess.

I need to get back to this english paper while I still have the motivation to do so.

peace. love. gambling
siobhan

Im addicted to my electronic leash.

There. I said it.
And like everything else in my life I have an explanation that I just now realized...

at one point in my life, my phone was all I had (ill explain). And now at times when I am working it is still the only way I have to communicate and hold conversations with people that will talk back in a way that I can understand, sorry Charlie, Hunter and Emma...but sometimes you three arent the best talkers or listeners for that matter.

At some points in my life it really does bother me that I am so dependent on my phone. I almost always have my phone on silent just because I used to have some days where I get so many messages at a time I would want to kill myself from hearing the ringer going off 500 times in a row or hearing it buzzzzzzz constantly. Anyways...because I have my phone on silent I constantly look at it to see if I have a message which is annoying...its frustrating that at times my phone controls me life.

remember back two paragraphs I said I would explain? Well heres that explanation...when I first moved out to california besides charlie my phone was legit all I had. I didnt have friends or anyone around the house my age to talk to and I didnt have my own laptop that I would just take anywhere around the house so i took my phone and texted everyone back home that I missed constantly...and ever since then my life has never been the same. ughhhhh.

I need therapy.
but until then keep those text messages coming : )

peace. love. addictions.
Sio

I cant wait to live like an adult : )

Okay so anyone reading this is probably like uhh arent you adult? yeah, I am. But thats not what I mean...

This is what i mean--

I cant wait to have my own apartment, house would be much better but i think we all know im not anywhere close to being ready to buy my own house, and being able to paint and decorate anyway that I want.

I have a facebook...just like everyone else I know, even my parents, and I see that out of my 250 friends a lot of them have kids like me but even more so a good portion of them have houses, husbands or maybe still fiances...and some are just living with their significant other. Im not sure why but I long for all of that. And no I dont expect nor want to be engaged anytime soon, but I cant wait.

I cant wait to be able to pick out a place to live and paints and furniture to go in my home as well as the little things like dishes and picture frames (we all know what a picture frame whore I am so thats a must) and bathroom decor and whatever else might I need or want in my living spaces.

I really dont know where all this is coming from but I really cant wait!
The new job I found with a family in charlotte is only part time until december and im not sure what I will do after that. Maybe ill find my own place to live and get going on putting stuff in it : )

byeeee
sio

We made it back to cali...

welllll....Emma and I are back in california after a long journey in the air..no joke thats a long flight. Anyways....idk about emma, she hasnt told me yet but I had the best weekend ive had in a long time.

We landed in charlotte at 10:30 thursday night and went to my aunts house and started drinking, HOLLA! Matt got there around 1 and we continued drinking and hanging out and what not and ended up going to bed at 3:30 and waking up at 8...WTF!

Friday we got up and I want to say we had breakfast but im not sure I ate...hmmm no idea, I dont remember...we went swimming and hung out some more and then later that afternoon Matt, Emma and I went to huntersville to meet the family im going to be working for part time. let me tell you what...those kids are a complete 360 from the kids I have now. Dont get me wrong I love charlie and hunter and im going to miss them very much but its totally going to be weird not yelling at kids 5 times a day...

Friday night my uncle flew in from NYC to surprise me...it was a surprise until my aunts boyfriend damon asked her when her brother was flying in...oops.

Saturday matt and I went shopping and I planned on actually shopping but neither one of us were really in the mood. oh well I guess I have all summer to go shopping which I will do...dont worry. later that night we went to a little bar somewhere in charlotte and watched damons band play...they are pretty good let me tell you what. ANYWAYS....then we went home and drank a little bit and went to bed like a bunch of old people we are.

Sunday..up at 1030 which is sleeping in for me these days, I took a nap while matt went swimming and we spent the day relaxing...monday pretty much went the same way...OH except that I went to an ortho to have a consultation and they want 6000 bucks to do my teeth and they want to take my braces off and start all over again..umm yeah no thanks.

Well thanks for reading my boring day by day story of what I did in charlotte this weekend. It really was a nice relaxing weekend and I cant wait until I live there : )

<3 Sio

Be back Monday : )

Well...as everyone in my life knows, today is the day : )

The day I head to LAX and hop on a plane to dallas and then to charlotte!

I am soooo excited for a vacation and it couldnt come at a better time. Things have been pretty stressful for me lately so its a perfect time to get away. Sooo excited.

Well heres my plan..Im going to fly coast to coast..tomorrow I will do whatever it is that I do in charlotte until about 3 when I get ready to head up to huntersville to meet my new "family" soo excited. Then saturday and sunday ill probably just hang out at the house with Matt, my aunt and of course Emma. Sounds like a relaxing weekend to me....jealous?

Peace. love. vacation.
sio

Lessons learned

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
When life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,I never should have taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone.
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
From everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
From every change, life has thrown me.
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,

Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,Lessons learned.Lessons learned.

This pretty much sums up my life : )

Less than 2 months..

Its so weird to think in that less than 2 months I wont live here anymore..Honeycomb lane will never be my address again unless of course theres another honeycomb lane out there and I happen to move on to it. But this address will never be mine again. Its reall weird to think about. Its emotionally hard for me but I know that it is time for me to go. Ive been here three years and im ready for what the next chapter of my life has to offer. Im going to see new places, do new things, make new friends and like everything else, with time I will be fine.

This move is hard..maybe harder than moving out here in the first place, maybe not but its really hard. Thats all I can say about it...

My picture frames are gone..
Books shipped out..
Shoes in their new home..
Purses too..
Swim suits waiting for me to wear this summer..
and winter clothes waiting for well...the the winter duh.

Nothing is really "mine" anymore in my bedroom which I share with maddie. Times like these make me happy I have someone to share my room with because its not completely bare even though my things are gone...all that remains are clothes I will wear in the coming weeks, a few pairs of shoes...random stuff that probably shouldnt be here anymore and most importantly...my family and life I have known for 3 years.

Im really okay with the thought of moving..its time to pack up and move on, im just gonna miss everything : (

Enough about me..ive got kids to discipline!
Sio

maybe im not meant to blog?

Mayyyyyyyyybe just maybe im not meant to blog...stupid statement huh? Because no one is MEANT to blog, it just happens. Like a lot of other things, it just comes to me. Maybe I blog because I know that not that many people read this so its like talking to someone without really talking. let me tell you what...blogging helps, and it helps a lot. I am able to write about everything and anything because not many people know about it and I dont always include names if im mad at someone so it doesnt really hurt anyones feelings when I say stuff.

Anyways..its been awhile since I have blogged and I think thats because 1. I didnt feel like it 2. everytime I started a blogged I realized how supid it was and 3. a lot has been going on that i would rather just keep to myself unless of course I filled you in over text messages : )

Heres whats going on in my life...

1. I freaking hate school. Ive always hated school but this college business has really gotten to me lately and its really not that hard but because I was dumb and took two years off of school its taking longer than planned to get back into the swing of school. I have exactly 2 months until I am done with school and im not sure im going to go back..haha okay of course im going to go back but I do have a lot of work to do to get through this semester.

2. I quit my job and since then things have gotten way worse. My days drag on, I never want to be here, I never talk to anyone other than Danyele and I think thats because I know my time is coming so I just want to get it over with and leave.

3. My vacation is a week away and I wish it was sooner, like now would be good. Anyways...im going to North Carolina next thursday and im not coming back, okay obviously im coming back because i have school and I have a job here so i need to come back annnnd im not really ready to leave yet. I mean yeah if I didnt have school and had a job in nc i would be out of here no doubt about it buuuuuuuut I still have things going on here and friends im going to miss so ill stay here and hang out for a few more months : )

umm thats about it for now...i guess i kinda of got side tracked so i forget what all I wanted to write but this should be enough for now..anyways...i need a nap : )

The Last Song By Nicholas Sparks

Okay, so maybe im waayyyy behind the times because I just finished the book last night and most people have seen the movie, if they have any interest in seeing it...well I have interest in seeing it. Buuuuut since Im so weird I like to read the book before I watch the movie as I have done with other nicholas sparks books that have been made into movies.

Anyways my point.

That book is sad, seriously sad, and im not going to lie...I cried...a lot. Maybe I cried because all I am is and emotional girl at times and thats what we do. We cry when things are sad. At the end of this book the girl and her brother find out that their dad is dying of cancer and he doesnt have much longer to live...okay if thats not sad in itself I dont know what is. I didnt cry until this part of the book because I remember watching one of my fellow classmates go through this most of our time in high school. Her mom had breast cancer and she was in remission but the cancer came back and eventually won. It broke my heart to think about that and what it must have been like to personally go through that. I know that I am strong, very strong but I promise you I will never be strong enough to lose one of my parents to cancer and thats that.

Even though this book is obviously not based on a true story, it happens. It happens everyday to children everywhere. Every single day that passes some child or children lose their parents to cancer as well as other illnesses or tragedies. All I really have to say is "im sorry". Im sorry you had to go through that and im sorry that you will never get the time back you have missed with your mother or father. I give you major credit for getting through it though thats for sure...

Okay sooo I think im going to end this post and go write a positive one : )

well well well...

im down to 1 week and 4 days left of waiting until I get to hop on a plane and fly across the country to north carolina...not gonna like im pretty excited : )

Im excited mainly to FINALLY get to hang out with mattchu. Ive been patiently waiting for awhile now and im sick of waiting, i think we all know im not a very patient person, I dont like waiting on much but this has been totally worth it.

I am also excited to get the heck out of here....this house has me stressed out beyond belief. It really hurts my feelings that everyone expects me to do things for them and they dont appreciate it...ever. They might say they do but newwwwws flash. They dont. Okay maybe its really junior highish that im complaining about something so stupid like this but ive been around for 3 years and just in the past couple months ive hated it more than anything ive ever been through in my life.

ughhhh. i need a nap.
sio

Ive chosen to keep my head up..

I decided from now on instead of getting upset or down or sad or whatever you want to call it, im going to keep my head up. Keeping my head up because I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Things are going to get better for me, I can tell. I cant be a debbie downer anymore...I know there are people out there that would kill to see me fail miserably but I cant let that happen. I have little eyes watching my every move, listening to my every word and looking up to me as a role model and what kind of role model would I be if i was sad and depressed all the time? not a very good one..

Eh em. I would like to apologize for my posts being so bi-polar lately...sometimes Im happy..sometimes im sad and sometimes im just blah. Bare with me...we all have our moments and if you dont then im not sure you are normal.

I have two weeks and half a day until I go to north carolina. I am pretty excited about that. Ill get to see my Aunt who I havent seen since christmas which actually isnt that bad because it was a year before that I saw her last...anyways and ill get to spend the whooole weekend with mattchu. Mattchu i will say is such a trooper for putting up with my good moods, my bad moods and my inbetween moods and for that....I <3 him.

I have 10 weeks until I will be living in North Carolina...charlotte to be exact for those creepers out there, and no im not telling you my new address...but anyways...10 weeks seems like a long time but its really not...its going to go by fast I know..look at all that has happened in the last 10 weeks....Abby turned 21, Jenn thought she was deploying but didnt, Diaz did deploy for a year, Matt came home from a year long deployment, Emma turned 2 annnnnd everything else that has happened....so 10 weeks isnt a big deal to me...bring it on...bring on the work days, the work outs, the homework, the finals, my moms visiting and the visits with matt, bring it on :) as each one comes and goes it will be closer to the time I move..

..which brings me to my next note....i am so scared. Im scared to leave whats been normal to me for 3 years...yes 3 years. Ive been in the conner family for 3 years and I love them all very much. The Lamberts (kellys family) adopted me in as one of their own and its like im leaving home all over again. Wont be as hard because im not leaving my REAL family but its gonna be an emotional moment to leave this family as well as my amazing friends. Ive met a lot of characters out here and I wouldnt trade them for anyone else....ahh snap. im gonna miss this!

Peace. Love. Better days,
Sio

Tomorrow is a new day...

Hmm....ever look back and think about youre life and wonder "wtf was I thinking"? Yeah well I know you have and if you say you havent youre lying. In my 20 years of life Ive had a lot of those moments and some of them actually crack me up and some of them I am ashamed and embarassed of but those dont really matter. Sometime I wish I would have done things differently but I think we all have those moments..sometimes I am able to laugh about things and say...oh my gosh I should do that again!! So anyways...i guess what im getting at is that from now one im going to try to keep a promise to myself...Im going to promise myself that I will consider thinking things through before I go through with them....and maybe then I wont have horrible hangovers if I just think "should I really make samantha and I a drink with half a bottle of vodka each?" yeah...should have thought that one through more...

Anyways...Samantha turned 20 this weekend which as you can guess from my previous comment turned into a shit show. Seriously...did not plan on drinking that much...I would love to tell you about everything but I really dont remember much at all : )

Saturday was a day full of recovery...worst hangover ever...dying sounded like a good plan but obviously too many people need me to do stuff for them that more lives would fall apart if I died so i decided not to run out onto bear valley road in front of a semi going 55 mph lol

Today was easter...if any of you didnt know that well youre dumb. Emma and I spent the day with Sam's family...such a good day, had a lot of fun! Emma loooooved hunting easter eggs with hayden and it was fun because it was a first for her. We had lunch and emma napped, then we had birthday cake for sam and then just sat around and hung out...so much fun :)

Tomorrow is monday....they day that everyone dreads and in an earlier post I said i really didnt care because I didnt have a normal monday to friday job...yeah well ive had the last 3 days off and im on my own with the babies tomorrow so this will be one of the mondays I hate!!

Since its almost midnight im just going to round up and say that I only have 2 weeks and 4 days until I am catching an east bound plane ALLLLLLLL THE WAY TO NC! but who cares im super excited to see matt as well as my aunt : ) okay seriously i do that whole smile nonsense a lot...is it annoying? cause its annoying to me but i do it all the time but then again I have a high tolerance for annoying stuff..ANYWAYSSSSSSSSS im excited...the next two weeks will go by fast.

Well im not really sure what else I have to say...things are going good for me overall and I cant wait to see whats going to happen next!! I hope everyone had a good safe weekend and hopefully you didnt get as embarassingly drunk as i did!

Much love

Sio

its been awhile

since ive last blogged...things really havent changed..my life is pretty much blah and I just want to go home. I miss home. I miss my mom. I miss my family.

I feel like its time for an emo post....buuuuut i dont feel like being emo so ill leave you with this..

ill be okay..promise.

sio

Girls should seriously think about this....

instead of wasting their time on duds. Got this from yahoo and every article I read on yahoo like this i put my own life into the scenario haha no joke...

Dating 101: Is He Mr. Right?

Dating Trait #1: He listens to you
The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthyof) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily
We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you
So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy
A relationship without trust is doomed from the start.
A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold.

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life
In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Does your Mr. Next possess all five qualities? If so, congratulations! You have done your homework, chosen wisely, and are now well positioned for relationship success.

If not, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back into the dating pool with a clearer understanding of who you want to date. Remember, finding your life partner isn't always easy, but by being clear, honoring yourself, and acting accordingly, you'll cut down on wasted time with Mr. Wrong and Mr. Next, and ultimately make room for Mr. Right.

im feeling a little down...

and I think its because I know that I am leaving here and I just want it to happen like ummmm NOW. Im not trying to be mean...its been a good run here for the most part but im over it. Im over the whole nanny gig as ive known it for 3 years. Im ready for something new...I need a set schedule..I need more time to myself, more time with emma, more time for school...I just need more time all together and im not getting that here : (

Im not putting any of the blame on anyone for my unhappiness...im unhappy.
ive been away from everything I ever knew for 18 years for too long. I miss everything. I really do.

okay thats my debbie downer post for you...

im gonna go walk. peace out.

Oh the Joys of being a nanny...kinda.

Soooo I woke up this morning feeling like pdiddy...grabbed my cell phone im out the door im gonna get my daughter..before I leave make my bed with perfection in mind cause when I leave for the day I wanna come back...

Im talkin..waking up way to early
boyyy its only 8:30...
ohhhh I could use another 30..

okay that was my failed attempt at a remake to Drunk Tswifts (kesha) Tik Tok...I know you enjoyed it, dont worry theres way more where that came from...

Anyways...time for the real blog..
I really did wake up this morning at 830..I really did go get emma, we made my bed and yes I mean we, she ALWAYS HELPS. And then I grabbed my phone and we headed downstairs for morning activities, brushing her teeth, breakfast, getting dressed and whatever else it is that 2 year olds do. I make breakfast which was delish and then after cleaning up my mess I decide that it would be a fantastic time to finish my english paper and get a head start on my work that I am so eager to get done.

Soooooo im sitting at the kitchen counter minding my own business, kelly is at the store, chuck is cleaning out the new turtle tank with of course my 2 year old helping and THENNNNNNNNNN I hear it...that AWFUL and I mean AWFUL SCREECHING NOISE that makes me want to kill myself...which of course I dont dare do because SO MANY lives would be crushed...so anyways I bet you are wondering what that noise is...SHOOT ME NOW, but Sir Charles has arrived. Its really really annoying that he comes over acting like he owns the place SCREAMING at the top of his lungs because he doesnt want to leave his mother...i mean what can i say for him, hes a mamas girl but seriously hes 3 years old..he knows the routine..he comes over here just as much as he spends time over at his mothers but seriously...it never fails...he screams. Hunter is better about the switcheroo than charlie and I dont know what to do...I need to invest in an earplug...earplug being singular because...well you know. I only need one : )

Luckily I was able to ignore his screaming long enough to copy paste my paper onto blackboard and submit it....5 days early incase you were wondering. I am oh so proud of myself..

Okay so heres the good shit.

Matt is home...SUPER DUPER excited about that and you should be too. Now that he is home and I no longer need to factor in a very expensive always growing texting bill into my life I might be able to afford to go out and do something with you if you ask...but dont ask for a few weeks...havent paid the 257.75 dollar phone bill yet. I am going to North Carolina in 26 days, yes I have a countdown and I cant wait! Ill get to see my favorite aunt and spend time with her as well as see matt : )

Heres some more good news..
You know that post I wrote about "omg im so excited and i cant tell you why yet"? Well, im ready to tell you. I got the job! The Nanny gig in north carolina and honestly I cant wait!! Lisa, the mother seems like an awesome person (mommy and employer) that I cant wait. Kinda stinks that the job is only transitional but we will see what happens. Maybe I will woo her with my expertise nanny skills that she will want me to work for her longer...we will see!

Well..i should probably get back to my life of screaming children in which I have no control over. no joke, they dont listen.

Peace out stalkers..
Nanny4life yo.

A blog for abby :)

Well well well....I have a follower...I just told her that I was going to wait and blog because I couldnt figure out what I wanted to blog about but heyyyy guess what! I found something, or someone in the case to blog about...ABBY!

Abby Christine Constantinople High has been one of my really good friends since 7th grade but I have know her since 4th grade when she had braces on her teeth and later on a cast on her arm because shes an idiot and not this isnt the only time I have seen her in a cast! haha Anyways weve been through a lot of shit...like more than anything you could think of and at the end of the day I know that I can call her (she may not always answer but she will call back) and talk to her about anything even dirty things! hahahaha Anyways...im living out in california and have been for three years and im getting ready to move to north carolina...but before I move to north carolina ACCH is moving to Flordia to live with randy : ) I am soooo happy and excited for her to be getting out of ohio and moving on with her life and i wish her and randy all the luck...

This is pretty much all I have to say..
Abby--Youre one of the bestest friends in the whole wide world that a girl could ever ask for. I wish you all the luck and I hope you know that if you EVER need anything, besides money, I will do what I can to help you. Always follow your heart and I know you will go far in life :)
Love you betch!
Siobs---nadine cheeks to you.

I have a huge smile on my face!

I am sooooo excited it isnt even funny!

Really thats all I have to say...I dont want to tell you why im excited yet but just know....I AM FREAKING EXCITED!

I am becoming obsessed...

---with checking my hotmail email.
Why you ask?
because this is the email that I have set up with the nanny website www.greataupair.com . The best website ever if you need to find a nanny gig, which by the way I am looking for. I havent really told that many people because I dont want to jinx myself and I think I wanted to keep it to myself for awhile but I think we all know that im not the best at keeping my own secrets in!

So ive been searching for the past week and I have been talking to a great family in North Carolina close to my aunts house which would be FABULOUS because shes the best : ) I think its the change I need, the change Ive been looking for the past few weeks and months.

Im not sure what made me decide to leave this life I have known for three years, I just think it would be in everyones best interest if nanny peaced the f out!

haha okay thats really all I have to say for now, I think...i might post later. we will see!

Sio

totally worth your stalking :)

Okay so really...things are totally starting to look up for me.

1. Ive decided what that change that I need oh so bad is going to be, I put in my "2 months notice" and told my boss as of June 12th 2010...I will no long be charlie and hunters "nanny nanny boo boo" hahaha dont ask about that name and no they dont really call me that!

2. Matt will FINALLY be home friday night : )

3. I am going to NC at the end of april to see Matt and my aunt as well

4. I am doing well in school which is something that has NEVER come easy to me.

well im sure i could go on, maybe, with reasons why my life is soooo perfect..and im being serious not my "i hate my life, but its perfect" attitude. Ive come to realize that things arent always going to go the way I want them to or the way that i think in theory they "should" so im just going to deal with it and get on with my life..

peace.
I would seriously write more but im getting pains in my hand..i feel the carpel (sp) tunnel coming on!

sio

im the luckiest : )

So it might be completely strange that im blogging again so soon since i wasnt for awhile...

Well...im just sitting here in my room alllll by myself thinking to myself that I really am lucky.

As much as my job gets to me and drives me nuts I have something many americans would kill for these days, a steady paycheck. No matter whatm every two weeks I have a check handed to me. A check to do whatever I want with because I havent created any bills for myself.

Im lucky because my friends are always there for me no matter what...even if i blew them off the day before or yelled at them for being dumb...they are always there.

I could go on and on about why i feel like the luckiest person in the world when it comes to matt but im pretty sure im the only one that cares about that..


seriously....im lucky.

My life is perfect.

For those of you that "get me" you might remember that Brandy and i used to say our life was perfect when we were having the worst days ever...well there you have it...well that should have been said yesterday...Yesterday, my life was perfect!

Sometimes I cant freaking stand myself haha im a girl obviously and with that comes emotional moments which I HATE!! likes seriously cut my wrists and black my eyes. lol buuuuuuuuut like everything else I get through it, im a nanny and a mom and i have three little sets of eyes watching everything I do so its probably not the best idea to bawl my eyes out when things are going right buuuuuuuuuuut thats what i did yesterday. spent most of my day crying because why? MY LIFE IS PERFECT! People would kill to be a 21 year old single mom to 3 kids haha no they arent all mine but sometimes i feel like they are because i dont always get the help i would life from their parents but whatever...this is what i get paid to do right? yeah guess so.

Anyways there you have it...my reasoning for why (in a nutshell) my life is perfect. So im pretty much over being a debbie downer...oh heres one for you..

I know this boyyyyyyyyyyyy his name is maaaattttttttttttttttttttttt and hes the best. no really he is. enough said.

okay but really im excited for him to come home WHICH HE KNOWS, im just writing this cause i know hes creepin and reading it and he might be laughing because im writing like this but ANYWAYS....the only reason im excited for him to come home is because i can go back to texting him like a normal person and not running up 100 dollar phone bills AND counting ladies and gentleman! okay actually im just excited for him to come home and im super excited about my trip to north carolina to see his face : ) soo dont ask me to hang out April 22nd to the 26th because I WONT BE HERE!

Gotta go get the kids.
peace motha FUCKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAA! lol sorry just had to.
Sio

Emma is 2 :)

Today my little daughter is two years old.

Time as flown by its not even funny..I cant wait to see what the next two years will bring!

Much love.
Sio

Its time for me to go :)

My bag is pack, im dressed, makeup on, hair done and im ready to head out the door : )

OHIO here I come!!!

Peace.
Sio

And I think to myself...

What did I do to deserve all that I have?

I have an amazing daughter who is almost 2 years old. It is so hard to believe that exactly two years ago she was due. My mama flew out here from Ohio to be here for this joyous occassion and my best friend brandy was by my side as well. Emma of course was fashionably late...8 days late to be exact...she was forced out when I was induced...who knows when she would have come out on her own haha Anyways...the point is...I have an amazing daughter who hasnt given me much trouble in her 2 years of life and I couldnt have asked for a better daughter with being such a young mom.

I have amazing parents...even 2300 miles away they all support me in every single thing I do. Even if they dont agree with me, they support me. I have been blessed with two sets of parents and I am glad God gave me the ones he did. They have all shaped me into the woman I am today and I dont think I could even ever try to thank them for everything they have done.

I have an amazing job as well as the family that comes with it. We have all had our ups and downs with each other but at the end of the day I couldnt have asked for a better situation for my first job out on my own. I have been with the Conner family for almost 3 years now and even though I have wanted to quit SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many times I am glad that I stuck with them because I have stability for myself as well as for emma and the children here as well.

Last but not least...theres someone out there that means a lot to me....I thank my lucky stars everyday for putting him into my life when He did. It couldnt have been more perfect timing and I consider myself very lucky.

Thats really all I have to say for now.

Peace
Sio <3

15 again...

Youre probably wondering what this is about...anyways.

I got my spacers on today...meaning life as i knew it is going to be totally different for the next 18 months : ) buuuuuuuuut at the end I will have a much desired perfect smile...and let me tell you what..I CANT WAIT!

Next tuesday I get something else on my teeth, forget what they called it and then on march 11th I go in to have my top braces put on...yaaaaaaay! haha Im well on my way to feeling like a 15 year old again and anyone that will be graced with my presence will probably feel like they are with a 15 year old again haha ohhhh spending my 21st in vegas with braces on my teeth will be memorable thats for sure!

Jimmy graduates from boot camp this week which is super exciting! I cant wait to see him, it feels like its been years when really its been a few months. Im so proud of him for going through what he had to the past 3 months and im super proud of him for everything that hes going to do from this day forward...unless its something that wont make me proud haha

I am going home soon which is somewhat exciting...I cant wait to see my family : )

umm well i really dont know what else to post about im sure ill come up with something later

much love
sio <3

Im trying, I really am....

School started last week...and im trying.

Math is coming easier to me than english is. English has never been my favorite subject but at the same time I think my teacher has picked an amazing book for us to learn from. My class is focusing on Writing fundamentals which has nothing to do with getting a degree in nursing but at the same time it is required to move forward with my schooling so i guess ill deal with it. Its not all that bad. I like writing when I have something fun to write about so we will see how things go.
Thank goodness for my cousins help..shes a smarty pants :) haha love her.

Not much has been going on in my life...same thing day in and day out..I wake up and go about my daily life which consists of trying to get some more homework done and hanging out with the boys if its my day to work and of course talking to my best friend all hours of the night. I cant wait for him to come home...

Speaking of home, I can not wait to catch that east bound flight to ohio!!! I miss my family so much and i know that its going to be my last trip home. And you know what. im going to spend all my time AT HOME! haha seriously, i might go out one day but thats it...when i go home i always get busy and never really spend time with my family and then when im back out in california i miss it...Well I do have plans to get a tattoo, get emmas 1st hair cut and maybe go out with my mama :) But really I want to spend time with my family as much as possible.

well thats about all I have to say for now i suppose

much love
sio

ps. april cant come soon enough!

Im staying up as long as possible :)

Well well well...guess what. Im staying up late again because I can!

Ive been staying up a lot lately...someone i never thought I would take interest in has somehow conned me into staying up until all hours of the night talking about everything and nothing at all at the same time....soooo since im up i thought i mise well take the time to blog.

I really dont have much to talk about these days, as i said in my last blog. Today was the first official day of school. I have half of my math work done thanks to the help of my great friends for helping me when i dont know what im doing. Enlish seems like its going to be a little tougher but we will see how everything works out...maybe while im up ill start reading my english book like i am supposed to instead of listening to my ipod and watching family guy..yeah sounds impossible but i cant hear family guy, im just watching it :)

Im pretty excited about this birthday present I am sending to afghanistan haha its the best..i will tell everyone about it once its opened, im not sure if Matt will end up stalking me on here like he does on everything else haha buuuuuuuuuuut im not going to brag too much but this bday present is a good one lol.

Oh on another note....I am seriously sick of verizon CUSTOMER SERVICE REPS being so rude and not helping me, AT ALL! ugh its such a downer and makes me not want them anymore,what can ya do? Actually, yu know what...i wish i could just go without a phone but we all know im addicted!

Ohhhhhhhh and tomorrow is Ash Wednesday which means the begining of lent which means i have to sacrifice something...I have more than one thing im going to attempt to give up and im going to make myself stick to atleast one...all the way through for 4o days!! Oh and Ive roped Matt and chelsea into participating as well...Matt is giving up Pop..yes thats right i said POP and Chelsea is giving up eating fast food and shopping...this is what im giving up:
1. Like Chelsea, I am giving up fast food as well as eating out all together...I think that it will help me save tons of money as well as help with my weight.
2. I am also giving up spending money that doesnt need to be spent...dont let me tell you I NEED a pair of shorts or I NEED this new shirt or anything from target..because i dont. well besides stuff I really need to take care of myself.
last but not least...
3. I am going to stop cussing...i think if i set a goal like 40 days it will help me focus more long term...its really not "cute" "sexy" or "lady like" hearing some of the words that come out of my mouth soooo im done..atleast i hope!

Well this is pretty much where i draw the line for bloggin...im tired and im going to take a power nap!

night
Sio

It Valentines day...

The one Hallmark Holiday that I really dont get into. Yeah I love it when i have someone to spend it with but when i dont, its kind of annoying to me haha. This year I have three of the best Valentines ever....Emma, Charlie and Hunter...no they didnt contribute to my mini flower shop in my bedroom but they are the three people that will always love me no matter what :) Well besides my parents and family and what not haha. I spend the majority of my life with these three little kids so it only seems fit that they are my valentines.

I know I havent been blogging much, not much has really gone on. Just working my life away, okay not really cause i have quite a bit of time off...started spring quarter which is super exciting, okay again not really haha but anyways...

I really dont have much to say....Happy Valentines Day Everyone!!!
-Sio

well well well...

It sure has been awhile since I have posted..hmm lets see OH YEAH! Jenn isnt deploying anymore :) I am so excited about that...and thats pretty much it

Samantha came home this weekend..didnt see her once which was weird..NOT HAPPY ABOUT THAT.

Im also pretty sick, not really sure whats wrong with me, ive been dizzy and what not...yesterday my hearing was messing up and it was driving me nuts and still kinda is today..NOT HAPPY ABOUT THAT!

I have the day off tomorrow so im still going to go to the gym and try to get buff haha HAPPY ABOUT THAT!!

Maddie comes home tuesday...HAPPY ABOUT THAT...I actually miss telling her that our room is a freaking mess haha

Im pretty sure those are the main things going on now, school starts in a week or so...pretty excited!

YAAAAAAAAAY! Thats it :)

Ohhhh i want to blog...

I want to blog so bad, i have so much to say, so much time to say it but when it comes down to it i dont want to say it...I wanna pour my heart out to someone..im mad, sad, happy, confused...im just feeling soooo ksjfajfkasdjiadvnaerub there thats how I feel.

Life in general is confusing...

"A Place In This World"

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me

Cause I'm still trying to figure it out

Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking

Trying to see through the rain coming down

Even though I'm not the only one

Who feels the way I do

[Chorus:]

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know

I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on

I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in

This world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans

And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve

Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine

Could you tell me what more do I need

And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah

But that's ok

[Repeat Chorus]

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission

But I'm ready to fly

[Repeat Chorus]

This song has so much meaning for my life right now its not even funny. I have so many things running through my brain its getting hard to process it all and do what needs to be done....but at the end of the day, I love my life...its perfect :)

ohhhhh today is gonna be bad :(

Im getting my wisdom teeth taken out today....

'nough said.

peace out
siobhan

My family is so far away :(

sooo ive been really emotional lately...and its not cool :( I guess its normal though, but when it comes down to it, i miss my family. Thats why i am so emotional. I know that its a part of life to miss people you move away from but really since I have moved out here to california I have missed out on so much

My sisters arent getting any younger and I miss them so much.

I am so proud of my brother who finally put one foot in front of the other and is going to college. Im so thankful for my parents, all of them, who have helped me out with so much. They have all helped me get through tough times even if I just need advice.

I was talking to my cousin today who is 16 and a junior in high school. I havent really talked to her a lot lately but I just happened to be signed into facebook, which is weird cause im NEVER on facebook, and she sent me a message joking around about us getting matching cars because she needs a new one and in order for me to move home I need a new one as well. Anyways. She got in a wreck on wednesday, she was pulling out of a gas station and some one ran into her, technically its my cousins fault cause she pulled out but she said she didnt see the car coming and she doesnt think the car even tried to stop because there were no skid marks on the road or no sign of the car trying to swerve out of the way. Steph (cousin) also told me that the car proceeded to reverse and run into her again, umm wtf? soo anyways stephs airbags went off and her first thought was "oh man, mom and dad are going to kill me" obviously they didnt because shes still around to tell me the story. Steph also told me that when she was trying to get the door open to get out she couldnt and she started thinking she was hurt so bad she was just going to die...that broke my heart...thats when the tears started coming. She told me that when she finally got out and the other girl was out as well she had her phone in her hand, yeah steph had no idea where hers was so my guess the girl was texting while she was driving thats why she still had her phone and thats why there were no skid marks because she didnt try to stop because she was trying to text instead of drive. Anyways...I asked steph if her parents were mad because she kept telling me that the whole time she thought they were gonna be so mad...but of course they werent mad, how could they be? their daughter was hurt in the hospital..they couldnt be mad...and this is what really got me..she said "they were just happy the car was gone and not me". Of course any parent would be happy a car was gone rather than their child but i just lost it...the tears started coming and i realized at that moment that i miss my family more than anything. I dont know what I would have done if my cousin was taken because of a car crash. I would have been a mess. Im just so scared that the worst is going to happen to anyone in my family and im all the way out in california.

I need change....stat.

In life I have learned......

That no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.

That you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.

That regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

That making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life.

That life sometimes gives you a second chance.

That you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back.

That whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.---that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

That every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

That people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

That I still have a lot to learn

My hero wears combat boots :)

This is jenn..yes I know you have all read about her in my previous posts but I just thought i would take time out of my busy to day to post about her yet again, I love her and im so proud to call her one of my best friends!!

Two in one day :)

okay I know i already posted but I decided i wanted to open up to people and at the same time i dont even know if ANYONE reads my blog so i might just be typing to type haha

Im lost. Im confused. Im in love. Im a mother. Im a student. Im scared. Im a nanny. Im a best friend. Im a giver. Im a taker. Im a lover. I have dreams. I have morals. I have goals. I have everything and nothing at all.

Im lost and confused on what to do in life. Im so scared that what im doing now isnt going to be what i want to do tomorrow. Im in love with california and my friends out here. I dream big dreams of succeeding and doing things no one thought i could do before. I have goals of giving my daughter things i was never able to have growing up...I have everything right where i want things but then at the end of the day i feel like i am empty handed and i just want to break down and cry...I have become very emotional lately and i really couldnt tell you why. Everything as been getting to me emotionally. Its so hard being here in california away from everything that was normal to me for 18 years.

Yeah i have friends here but they are just a walk down the street like ohio, one of my best friends lives in San Diego and my other best friend is deploying soon! I know i posted a blog about her not to long ago but it still bothers me. Shes like one of my sisters, heck weve tried to devise a plan so i could deploy for her, everyone thinks we look alike so why dont we put it to the test! haha She came over the other day so i could take her out to dinner for her 22nd birthday and she brought a lot of her stuff shes getting rid of while shes gone and it broke my heart, i didnt let her see my cry when she was here but when she left thats exactly what i did. I miss her now because we dont hang out as much I dont know what im going to do when i cant text her for something or see what shes doing because i know what she will be doing...defending my freedom. Im so lucky to have such great friends...some I have had for 10 years some I have had for 3 and some I just met last month. I could ask for better friends and I thank you all for being there for me.

okay I think thats enough for now.
much love
sio

Bring on the rain.

okay seriously...is God giving me all this rain because i said im sick of the desert? I said I wanna go home once...is he sending all the rain because it rains in ohio so maybe this will remind me of ohio? Well God...you can stop now, ive had enough and I think all of southern california has as well....so really thanks but no thanks :)

Honestly california has gotten more rain in the past 4 days than I have ever experienced out here in the past 3 years. Its nice for a change, we got to turn the sprinklers off so the rain is going to hopefully turn our grass green but really I think im okay if the rain would just stop right now...I wanna ride my bike, I wanna go for a walk but I cant :(

Today I took the kids out to lunch at wendys. I know some of you that know how kids are or know that the kids i take care of out of control probably think I have joined them. It went well surprisingly. I think I might start doing that weekly...maybe not always fast food. I dont want to promote obeseity. But anyways...today while they were eating their happy meals I just observed them and realize wow, these kids arent that bad. They just need time and attention and they dont always get that when there are so many people in our house. I realized that I have played a major role in their lives and that makes my heart smile knowing that im helping a child become who they are. I love these kids and I think im pretty lucky as a nanny to have found such a great family to work for even though we have our ups and downs and I have days I wanna quit :) I know this blog is random and pointless but since my stupid phone isnt working I have nothing better to do lol. anyways thats really all I have to say.

peace out-
-sio

Tomorrow is monday again..

And this monday is going to be different.

Yes, its a holiday but beyond that this is the monday that im seriously going to get serious about my workout plan. Im by no means fat or over weight but I have a goal, and I want to meet that goal so reach the confidence level I would like to be at.

I Siobhan am going to do the following (well I want to so im gonna try hard)
1. NO MORE EATING OUT...thats a hard one for me sometimes because its so easy although I have cut way back.
2. No soda at all...which isnt hard because I drink water all the time anyways.
3. Workout everyday for atleast an hour, maybe two..I have a bike that I can start using more and a gym membership that needs to be put to good use.
4. Last but not least I need to stop eating so much junk.. I dont eat candy and stuff like that but I eat food that I could go without sometimes.

Anyways thats enough about that..lets talk about what has been going on.

I went to the dentist as well as the orthodontist this week and things are good. January 26th i will be going into the dentist to have my wisdom teeth pulled so I can start the process to have braces. I have made the decision that I would like to make my smile better although I love it how it is now i think it could be better.

Not much has been going on besides this stuff...thanks for reading.

much love
Sio <3

horrible blogger award goes too.......ME

I am seriously horrible at this whole blog thing...stuff happens that i want to post about i just dont..and then when i sit down to write i forget everything that i wanted to write...hmmmm wierd.

Anyways, this week has been okay, just hanging out relaxing and doing what i do, besides playing nanny because i am off for the week :) :) <---yes two smiles were needed because having time to myself is the best feeling EVER!

anyways enough of this, ive got nothing to say besides the fact that im super excited for AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!

peace sucka.

Its monday...ugh.

Oh here it is, the oh so dreaded monday. Im not really sure why I hate mondays considering I dont have a normal work week that starts on monday, it just starts whenever.

The first couple days of the new year have been good, i havent done much at all really....spent most of my weekend in bed. A lot is going on in my life that upsets me...idk why i let it all upset me, i decided today that im an emotional basketcase....thats why :)

One of my best friends is getting ready for a year long deployment...yeah I said it, a year. Oh snap, I am seriously going to miss her...shes going to come back 23 years old and we will be getting ready to celebrate my 22nd...shes not going to be here for my 21st which would be our first time to legally drink together which upsets me...shes going to miss emmas second birthday, hunters 3rd and charlies 4th...i know your wondering why i included them but i did because shes a member of this family. Since the day I introduced her to my family everyone fell in love with her...shes such a good person with a good heart ready and willing to do whatever she has to do to get the job done. Most importantly shes a U.S. Marine...shes my hero. Jenn is such a strong woman I know shes going to be just fine...Im just scared. Im not really sure how im going to make it through the year with out her...i mean yeah okay i have other friends and i know ill get along just fine but its going to suck.

I think im going to go before the tears come rolling in even more...ill write more..promise.

Love always..

Jenns best friend.

The time has come for a new year, I think its time for a new me :)

Okay so like always its been awhile since I have posted and I dont know what to say....ive been doing a lot of soul searching and my 10 day trip to ohio helped me more than I ever thought it would, usually I hate going home because its so boring and lonely and cold but this was one of the best times ive ever been home.

Anyways, its a new year time for a new me and I can honestly say I cant wait to see what 2010 has to offer me. In 2009 and years past I have been blessed with amazing friends and family and of course being a part of my daughters everyday life. She is getting so big and so smart I cant wait to see what will come of the year ahead of us.

In 2009 I went through a lot and I put myself through even more, I started and ended a relationship and have learned so much about myself since then. Emma turned 1 and has grown so much. Kelly and Chuck went their seperate ways and have found love in other places. Our family here has grown by 3 and I love every minute of it. Ive learned a lot about myself and I have my experiences that I went through to thank for that. James left for boot camp to fulfill his dream of being a United States Marine. I think hes going to be the best of the best :)

hmm so much more has happened, and I cant wait to write about it and let you know about EVERYTHING, but i think theres a time and a place and I would love to give you a reason to come back and read more...

But I will leave you with this...
I wish you all the best of luck in 2010. I can honestly say that I am excited for 2010. I know that its going to be the best year yet and I cant wait to experience it :)

Im so *lucky*
Much love,
Siobhan.