so sorry its been so long since I have written but now i have found the time to sit down and blog...currently breeze and I are watching 102 dalmations, before this we watched the little mermaid two and last night it was 101 dalmations...oh what i wouldnt give to be 6 years old again.
anyways...let me tell you about my life..
Life is great...it really is.
I got to north carolina on june 14th and so far I dont regret one thing about the move. The family is great, whats expected of me work wise is even better. I havent been this happy in a long time and I hope things keep going the way they have been.
ugh. im getting into this movie, ill write more soon. swear.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
so much is new.
okay for real...I KNOW ive been the worst blogger ever but thats because so so so much has gone on. I might consider going into detail later, but know that I am alive and well...in north carolina and loving my new life : )
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Mixed emotions....
Sooo theres only 11 full days left of my time in California and it gets harder with each passing day and at the end of each day I have to tell myself....This was my choice..I live the life I choose.
Ive had a good run in california and I wouldnt trade my experiences for anything..ive had the best of times with the greatest friends and im going to miss everything and everyone..
thats really all i have to say for now I guess..
in case you are wondering since ive been MIA from the blog world...Im doing okay.
peace. love. moving.
sio
Ive had a good run in california and I wouldnt trade my experiences for anything..ive had the best of times with the greatest friends and im going to miss everything and everyone..
thats really all i have to say for now I guess..
in case you are wondering since ive been MIA from the blog world...Im doing okay.
peace. love. moving.
sio
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Two weeks : )
Matt will be here in 1 hour...oh at this time in two weeks : )
Anyways, since I only have 2 weeks until he is here i better get these other things on my to do list done!
11. work on my research paper
12. make sure all of my stuff is ready to move or already at my new house!
13. clean out the nanny mobile
14. have a garage sale
15. call my banks and have my address change
16. figure out what all there is to do when matt will be here
17. see as many people as possible
18. have as much fun as possible
19. cry a lot (its going to happen)
20. take my change to the bank
21. TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES!!!!!!
Yeah, that last one is a must that must be done.
soo umm thats my life for the next 2.5 ish weeks. Can you believe it? I will be 21 in less than 3 weeks. weird I know
peace. love. pictures
-sio
Anyways, since I only have 2 weeks until he is here i better get these other things on my to do list done!
11. work on my research paper
12. make sure all of my stuff is ready to move or already at my new house!
13. clean out the nanny mobile
14. have a garage sale
15. call my banks and have my address change
16. figure out what all there is to do when matt will be here
17. see as many people as possible
18. have as much fun as possible
19. cry a lot (its going to happen)
20. take my change to the bank
21. TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES!!!!!!
Yeah, that last one is a must that must be done.
soo umm thats my life for the next 2.5 ish weeks. Can you believe it? I will be 21 in less than 3 weeks. weird I know
peace. love. pictures
-sio
Monday, May 17, 2010
21 things to do before I turn 21 : )
Okay so today is monday, and my birthday is on Monday june 7th so that means I have exactly three weeks until I turn 21...21 days until im 21 and im sure I can come up with 21 things to do before i turn 21 so here goes..
1.Go to the San Diego Zoo (check off my list after saturday)
2.Get my hair cut
3. Get a pedicure
4. and manicure
5. Have a garage sale
6. pick up matt from the airport (if I remember)
7. Finish up school
8. Weekend in Los Angeles
9. VEGAS (wait, im headed there the day I turn 21, does that count?)
10. Clean my room
okay...well that was too much work so im going to make this a 2 part series...ill have more when I think of more : )
peace. love. and 21
Sio
1.Go to the San Diego Zoo (check off my list after saturday)
2.Get my hair cut
3. Get a pedicure
4. and manicure
5. Have a garage sale
6. pick up matt from the airport (if I remember)
7. Finish up school
8. Weekend in Los Angeles
9. VEGAS (wait, im headed there the day I turn 21, does that count?)
10. Clean my room
okay...well that was too much work so im going to make this a 2 part series...ill have more when I think of more : )
peace. love. and 21
Sio
Sunday, May 16, 2010
A day away from the HD
Well yesterday was May 15th 2010. The day that I had dedicated to go to Bolsa Chica State Park in Huntington Beach to walk a 5k (which was a 10k last year) for Cystic Fibrosis. Scottie Somers is who our team walks for and the best part is, he always walks with us : ) It was so good to see scottie and catch up and for him to see emma again considering he hasnt seen her since she was a month old.
Anyways...we did the walk and decided against the beach because it was too windy and emma was super duper tired to we made the journey back to Alex's house and hung out by the pool in his apartment complex and let emma play before we put her back in the dreaded carseat that she hates to be in for so long sometimes. After we enjoyed the pool we made the journey back to the HD and hung out for a little bit before jenn went home and soon after alex went home as well.
That was my saturday in a nutshell and heres my sunday.
Im sick. Im tired. Im bored. Im upset. Im scared. And with all this aside I couldnt be happier with my life. Im ready to take on what is about to happen in my life and im excited to see what comes my way, you know the things I dont have "planned". In case you didnt know, I have a plan for everything. I feel like I can call the shots on my life and sometimes I am successful, sometimes well not so much.
I also have countdowns for everything...no joke. I have 18 days until I see the best boyfriend ever, WHOA! 21 days until I turn 21 : ) and 26 days left as a California resident. I cant wait in fact I am so excited, I just cant hide it! haha I am a dork, I know. I cant wait to see what North Carolina has in store for me :)
peace. love. east coast.
Sio
p.s. I know what I am going to do for my next tattoo....bet you wish I would tell you!
Anyways...we did the walk and decided against the beach because it was too windy and emma was super duper tired to we made the journey back to Alex's house and hung out by the pool in his apartment complex and let emma play before we put her back in the dreaded carseat that she hates to be in for so long sometimes. After we enjoyed the pool we made the journey back to the HD and hung out for a little bit before jenn went home and soon after alex went home as well.
That was my saturday in a nutshell and heres my sunday.
Im sick. Im tired. Im bored. Im upset. Im scared. And with all this aside I couldnt be happier with my life. Im ready to take on what is about to happen in my life and im excited to see what comes my way, you know the things I dont have "planned". In case you didnt know, I have a plan for everything. I feel like I can call the shots on my life and sometimes I am successful, sometimes well not so much.
I also have countdowns for everything...no joke. I have 18 days until I see the best boyfriend ever, WHOA! 21 days until I turn 21 : ) and 26 days left as a California resident. I cant wait in fact I am so excited, I just cant hide it! haha I am a dork, I know. I cant wait to see what North Carolina has in store for me :)
peace. love. east coast.
Sio
p.s. I know what I am going to do for my next tattoo....bet you wish I would tell you!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
A song I like : )
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don�t close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don�t close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose
Monday, May 10, 2010
the days are getting harder : (
So I only have 24 days left as Charlie and Hunters nanny which is realistically less because they will be with their mom some of those days and I have 32 days left as California resident. Im sure its getting old hearing about me moving hearing about my life changing and blah blah blah but I dont care, i dont really write this blog for you, I write it for me, I write it to get stuff off my mind.
I am really excited about my new job and the new opportunities and experiences I will have and as much as I love change, i have to admit im a little on the scared side. What if I get homesick all over again because 17745 honeycomb lane has been my home for 3 years. What if the job is totally not what I am looking for and I end up hating it? I really dont think that is going to happen, I met with Lisa and her family when I was in north carolina and fell in love with them all but at the same time this life has been normal for three years and its weird to think that my daily routine is going to be completely different. Heck im going to be on the opposite side of the country and im going to have to time everything just right if I want to talk to my california friends.
Which brings me to a good point. A lot of people ask me weekly, sometimes daily, "why are you moving to NC". And this is what I want you to know...Because. Thats really the only answer I can give you, because. Because I want to, and because I can oh and most importantly because theres no one here that can stop me.
Im going to miss my friends very much and i mean very very very much. It just might be harder to leave these friends than it was to leave my friends in vw 3 years ago and only because when I left vw I knew that I would be home to visit, I would always have a reason to go back with that reason being family. Obviously everyone i know in california means a lot to me but at the time trips back here will have to be vacations and what not. All my holidays will be spent with my family in ohio : ) (you know how good it feels to know that I will be able to spend any holiday I want with my family as long as my job allows it : ) )
Anyways...im not sure what else to write other than the next 24 days need to hurry up and get here so maybe I wont be so lonely anymore and the next 32 days need to hurry up so I can peace out of here and start the next chapter of my life. I cant wait to see what happens for me : )
peace. love. change.
sio
I am really excited about my new job and the new opportunities and experiences I will have and as much as I love change, i have to admit im a little on the scared side. What if I get homesick all over again because 17745 honeycomb lane has been my home for 3 years. What if the job is totally not what I am looking for and I end up hating it? I really dont think that is going to happen, I met with Lisa and her family when I was in north carolina and fell in love with them all but at the same time this life has been normal for three years and its weird to think that my daily routine is going to be completely different. Heck im going to be on the opposite side of the country and im going to have to time everything just right if I want to talk to my california friends.
Which brings me to a good point. A lot of people ask me weekly, sometimes daily, "why are you moving to NC". And this is what I want you to know...Because. Thats really the only answer I can give you, because. Because I want to, and because I can oh and most importantly because theres no one here that can stop me.
Im going to miss my friends very much and i mean very very very much. It just might be harder to leave these friends than it was to leave my friends in vw 3 years ago and only because when I left vw I knew that I would be home to visit, I would always have a reason to go back with that reason being family. Obviously everyone i know in california means a lot to me but at the time trips back here will have to be vacations and what not. All my holidays will be spent with my family in ohio : ) (you know how good it feels to know that I will be able to spend any holiday I want with my family as long as my job allows it : ) )
Anyways...im not sure what else to write other than the next 24 days need to hurry up and get here so maybe I wont be so lonely anymore and the next 32 days need to hurry up so I can peace out of here and start the next chapter of my life. I cant wait to see what happens for me : )
peace. love. change.
sio
Friday, May 7, 2010
A week of frustration...
well well well its friday, which means an end to my week of frustration...hopefully.
I really dont know what has gotten into me lately but i will be the first to admit this week was filled with many mental breakdowns to the point where i just had to let out a good cry, wipe my tears, and move on.
heres the deal...
1. My job.
My job that i once loved with everything in me has turned into a chore. I dont enjoy it (not saying I dont like being a nanny or this family) buuuuuuuut i dont enjoy being a nanny for this family anymore and it hurts. This family has been mine for 3 years and I have been so thankful for everything they have done for me and any opportunity I have been given and everything they have taught me will be packed up amongst my belongings and making the move to nc with me as well. This job just isnt for me anymore and the fact that im here another month stresses me out because things wont be getting better until I turn off of honeycomb lane onto hidden valley one last time. Okay just typing that makes me sad!! anyways..
2. School
School is one thing that actually frustrated me at first but now things are good. Im doing really well and I have almost everything done for the semseter which is a good thing. I only have one more english paper to write and a cheat sheet for math as well as the practice final and i am DONE with my first year of college. whoa. thats weird to say or type in this matter....buuuuut i know that I have a lot more schooling ahead of me. The thing that is frustrating about school is that i do not know what i want to go for anymore so im kind of at a stand still but ill get through it!!
3. My mouth
This just might be the most frustrating thing going on in my life right now. Working for the conner family I was lucky to have medical and dental insurance tossed in with the deal. Well I got braces. And now im stuck. Im leaving the job, as everyone knows, which means Im leaving the insurance which means im either insurance shopping or paying for the rest of my grill out of pocket. Sounds easy, right? Yeah except every ortho ive talked to in charlotte wants 4 or 5 grand for my treatment even though i already have the braces on AND every insurance company i call doesnt offer insurance for orthodontics to individuals which is me. So im working on that and hopefully I start working harder, ive really got to figure it out.
Anyways...thats whats going on in my life, if you were wondering, well now you know.
Oh and Sunday is my 3rd mothers day. So weird.
peace. love. and frustration.
Sio
I really dont know what has gotten into me lately but i will be the first to admit this week was filled with many mental breakdowns to the point where i just had to let out a good cry, wipe my tears, and move on.
heres the deal...
1. My job.
My job that i once loved with everything in me has turned into a chore. I dont enjoy it (not saying I dont like being a nanny or this family) buuuuuuuut i dont enjoy being a nanny for this family anymore and it hurts. This family has been mine for 3 years and I have been so thankful for everything they have done for me and any opportunity I have been given and everything they have taught me will be packed up amongst my belongings and making the move to nc with me as well. This job just isnt for me anymore and the fact that im here another month stresses me out because things wont be getting better until I turn off of honeycomb lane onto hidden valley one last time. Okay just typing that makes me sad!! anyways..
2. School
School is one thing that actually frustrated me at first but now things are good. Im doing really well and I have almost everything done for the semseter which is a good thing. I only have one more english paper to write and a cheat sheet for math as well as the practice final and i am DONE with my first year of college. whoa. thats weird to say or type in this matter....buuuuut i know that I have a lot more schooling ahead of me. The thing that is frustrating about school is that i do not know what i want to go for anymore so im kind of at a stand still but ill get through it!!
3. My mouth
This just might be the most frustrating thing going on in my life right now. Working for the conner family I was lucky to have medical and dental insurance tossed in with the deal. Well I got braces. And now im stuck. Im leaving the job, as everyone knows, which means Im leaving the insurance which means im either insurance shopping or paying for the rest of my grill out of pocket. Sounds easy, right? Yeah except every ortho ive talked to in charlotte wants 4 or 5 grand for my treatment even though i already have the braces on AND every insurance company i call doesnt offer insurance for orthodontics to individuals which is me. So im working on that and hopefully I start working harder, ive really got to figure it out.
Anyways...thats whats going on in my life, if you were wondering, well now you know.
Oh and Sunday is my 3rd mothers day. So weird.
peace. love. and frustration.
Sio
Saturday, May 1, 2010
matt needs to wake up..
im only blogging because matt is sleeping and im bored and I like to take breaks in between paragraphs that i am writing on my english paper.
This english paper is about gambling and the cause and effects and what not. welllll its not a research paper so i didnt have to look up facts or statistics which is good buut its hard because i really dont know what gambling is all about. I mean yeah i get it, i get what it does to people and what not but i dont get everything so pretty much im pulling everything that im typing out of my butt. Soooo lets hope that I get a good grade : )
While im on the topic of school, im getting good grades. i owe a lot of thanks to a few people for helping me out when i get frustrated and dont want to do it anymore. Math, for one, is frustrating to me. I hate it. With every passion in my body actually. But, im almost done and I cant wait to be done!
ummm oh and im pretty sure im dropping out. haha okay not really but I hate school, I dont see how im going to survive 4 more years, we will see I guess.
I need to get back to this english paper while I still have the motivation to do so.
peace. love. gambling
siobhan
This english paper is about gambling and the cause and effects and what not. welllll its not a research paper so i didnt have to look up facts or statistics which is good buut its hard because i really dont know what gambling is all about. I mean yeah i get it, i get what it does to people and what not but i dont get everything so pretty much im pulling everything that im typing out of my butt. Soooo lets hope that I get a good grade : )
While im on the topic of school, im getting good grades. i owe a lot of thanks to a few people for helping me out when i get frustrated and dont want to do it anymore. Math, for one, is frustrating to me. I hate it. With every passion in my body actually. But, im almost done and I cant wait to be done!
ummm oh and im pretty sure im dropping out. haha okay not really but I hate school, I dont see how im going to survive 4 more years, we will see I guess.
I need to get back to this english paper while I still have the motivation to do so.
peace. love. gambling
siobhan
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Im addicted to my electronic leash.
There. I said it.
And like everything else in my life I have an explanation that I just now realized...
at one point in my life, my phone was all I had (ill explain). And now at times when I am working it is still the only way I have to communicate and hold conversations with people that will talk back in a way that I can understand, sorry Charlie, Hunter and Emma...but sometimes you three arent the best talkers or listeners for that matter.
At some points in my life it really does bother me that I am so dependent on my phone. I almost always have my phone on silent just because I used to have some days where I get so many messages at a time I would want to kill myself from hearing the ringer going off 500 times in a row or hearing it buzzzzzzz constantly. Anyways...because I have my phone on silent I constantly look at it to see if I have a message which is annoying...its frustrating that at times my phone controls me life.
remember back two paragraphs I said I would explain? Well heres that explanation...when I first moved out to california besides charlie my phone was legit all I had. I didnt have friends or anyone around the house my age to talk to and I didnt have my own laptop that I would just take anywhere around the house so i took my phone and texted everyone back home that I missed constantly...and ever since then my life has never been the same. ughhhhh.
I need therapy.
but until then keep those text messages coming : )
peace. love. addictions.
Sio
And like everything else in my life I have an explanation that I just now realized...
at one point in my life, my phone was all I had (ill explain). And now at times when I am working it is still the only way I have to communicate and hold conversations with people that will talk back in a way that I can understand, sorry Charlie, Hunter and Emma...but sometimes you three arent the best talkers or listeners for that matter.
At some points in my life it really does bother me that I am so dependent on my phone. I almost always have my phone on silent just because I used to have some days where I get so many messages at a time I would want to kill myself from hearing the ringer going off 500 times in a row or hearing it buzzzzzzz constantly. Anyways...because I have my phone on silent I constantly look at it to see if I have a message which is annoying...its frustrating that at times my phone controls me life.
remember back two paragraphs I said I would explain? Well heres that explanation...when I first moved out to california besides charlie my phone was legit all I had. I didnt have friends or anyone around the house my age to talk to and I didnt have my own laptop that I would just take anywhere around the house so i took my phone and texted everyone back home that I missed constantly...and ever since then my life has never been the same. ughhhhh.
I need therapy.
but until then keep those text messages coming : )
peace. love. addictions.
Sio
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I cant wait to live like an adult : )
Okay so anyone reading this is probably like uhh arent you adult? yeah, I am. But thats not what I mean...
This is what i mean--
I cant wait to have my own apartment, house would be much better but i think we all know im not anywhere close to being ready to buy my own house, and being able to paint and decorate anyway that I want.
I have a facebook...just like everyone else I know, even my parents, and I see that out of my 250 friends a lot of them have kids like me but even more so a good portion of them have houses, husbands or maybe still fiances...and some are just living with their significant other. Im not sure why but I long for all of that. And no I dont expect nor want to be engaged anytime soon, but I cant wait.
I cant wait to be able to pick out a place to live and paints and furniture to go in my home as well as the little things like dishes and picture frames (we all know what a picture frame whore I am so thats a must) and bathroom decor and whatever else might I need or want in my living spaces.
I really dont know where all this is coming from but I really cant wait!
The new job I found with a family in charlotte is only part time until december and im not sure what I will do after that. Maybe ill find my own place to live and get going on putting stuff in it : )
byeeee
sio
This is what i mean--
I cant wait to have my own apartment, house would be much better but i think we all know im not anywhere close to being ready to buy my own house, and being able to paint and decorate anyway that I want.
I have a facebook...just like everyone else I know, even my parents, and I see that out of my 250 friends a lot of them have kids like me but even more so a good portion of them have houses, husbands or maybe still fiances...and some are just living with their significant other. Im not sure why but I long for all of that. And no I dont expect nor want to be engaged anytime soon, but I cant wait.
I cant wait to be able to pick out a place to live and paints and furniture to go in my home as well as the little things like dishes and picture frames (we all know what a picture frame whore I am so thats a must) and bathroom decor and whatever else might I need or want in my living spaces.
I really dont know where all this is coming from but I really cant wait!
The new job I found with a family in charlotte is only part time until december and im not sure what I will do after that. Maybe ill find my own place to live and get going on putting stuff in it : )
byeeee
sio
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
We made it back to cali...
welllll....Emma and I are back in california after a long journey in the air..no joke thats a long flight. Anyways....idk about emma, she hasnt told me yet but I had the best weekend ive had in a long time.
We landed in charlotte at 10:30 thursday night and went to my aunts house and started drinking, HOLLA! Matt got there around 1 and we continued drinking and hanging out and what not and ended up going to bed at 3:30 and waking up at 8...WTF!
Friday we got up and I want to say we had breakfast but im not sure I ate...hmmm no idea, I dont remember...we went swimming and hung out some more and then later that afternoon Matt, Emma and I went to huntersville to meet the family im going to be working for part time. let me tell you what...those kids are a complete 360 from the kids I have now. Dont get me wrong I love charlie and hunter and im going to miss them very much but its totally going to be weird not yelling at kids 5 times a day...
Friday night my uncle flew in from NYC to surprise me...it was a surprise until my aunts boyfriend damon asked her when her brother was flying in...oops.
Saturday matt and I went shopping and I planned on actually shopping but neither one of us were really in the mood. oh well I guess I have all summer to go shopping which I will do...dont worry. later that night we went to a little bar somewhere in charlotte and watched damons band play...they are pretty good let me tell you what. ANYWAYS....then we went home and drank a little bit and went to bed like a bunch of old people we are.
Sunday..up at 1030 which is sleeping in for me these days, I took a nap while matt went swimming and we spent the day relaxing...monday pretty much went the same way...OH except that I went to an ortho to have a consultation and they want 6000 bucks to do my teeth and they want to take my braces off and start all over again..umm yeah no thanks.
Well thanks for reading my boring day by day story of what I did in charlotte this weekend. It really was a nice relaxing weekend and I cant wait until I live there : )
<3 Sio
We landed in charlotte at 10:30 thursday night and went to my aunts house and started drinking, HOLLA! Matt got there around 1 and we continued drinking and hanging out and what not and ended up going to bed at 3:30 and waking up at 8...WTF!
Friday we got up and I want to say we had breakfast but im not sure I ate...hmmm no idea, I dont remember...we went swimming and hung out some more and then later that afternoon Matt, Emma and I went to huntersville to meet the family im going to be working for part time. let me tell you what...those kids are a complete 360 from the kids I have now. Dont get me wrong I love charlie and hunter and im going to miss them very much but its totally going to be weird not yelling at kids 5 times a day...
Friday night my uncle flew in from NYC to surprise me...it was a surprise until my aunts boyfriend damon asked her when her brother was flying in...oops.
Saturday matt and I went shopping and I planned on actually shopping but neither one of us were really in the mood. oh well I guess I have all summer to go shopping which I will do...dont worry. later that night we went to a little bar somewhere in charlotte and watched damons band play...they are pretty good let me tell you what. ANYWAYS....then we went home and drank a little bit and went to bed like a bunch of old people we are.
Sunday..up at 1030 which is sleeping in for me these days, I took a nap while matt went swimming and we spent the day relaxing...monday pretty much went the same way...OH except that I went to an ortho to have a consultation and they want 6000 bucks to do my teeth and they want to take my braces off and start all over again..umm yeah no thanks.
Well thanks for reading my boring day by day story of what I did in charlotte this weekend. It really was a nice relaxing weekend and I cant wait until I live there : )
<3 Sio
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Be back Monday : )
Well...as everyone in my life knows, today is the day : )
The day I head to LAX and hop on a plane to dallas and then to charlotte!
I am soooo excited for a vacation and it couldnt come at a better time. Things have been pretty stressful for me lately so its a perfect time to get away. Sooo excited.
Well heres my plan..Im going to fly coast to coast..tomorrow I will do whatever it is that I do in charlotte until about 3 when I get ready to head up to huntersville to meet my new "family" soo excited. Then saturday and sunday ill probably just hang out at the house with Matt, my aunt and of course Emma. Sounds like a relaxing weekend to me....jealous?
Peace. love. vacation.
sio
The day I head to LAX and hop on a plane to dallas and then to charlotte!
I am soooo excited for a vacation and it couldnt come at a better time. Things have been pretty stressful for me lately so its a perfect time to get away. Sooo excited.
Well heres my plan..Im going to fly coast to coast..tomorrow I will do whatever it is that I do in charlotte until about 3 when I get ready to head up to huntersville to meet my new "family" soo excited. Then saturday and sunday ill probably just hang out at the house with Matt, my aunt and of course Emma. Sounds like a relaxing weekend to me....jealous?
Peace. love. vacation.
sio
Monday, April 19, 2010
Lessons learned
There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
When life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,I never should have taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone.
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
From everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
From every change, life has thrown me.
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,Lessons learned.Lessons learned.
This pretty much sums up my life : )
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
When life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,I never should have taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone.
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.
And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
From everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
From every change, life has thrown me.
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,Lessons learned.Lessons learned.
This pretty much sums up my life : )
Less than 2 months..
Its so weird to think in that less than 2 months I wont live here anymore..Honeycomb lane will never be my address again unless of course theres another honeycomb lane out there and I happen to move on to it. But this address will never be mine again. Its reall weird to think about. Its emotionally hard for me but I know that it is time for me to go. Ive been here three years and im ready for what the next chapter of my life has to offer. Im going to see new places, do new things, make new friends and like everything else, with time I will be fine.
This move is hard..maybe harder than moving out here in the first place, maybe not but its really hard. Thats all I can say about it...
My picture frames are gone..
Books shipped out..
Shoes in their new home..
Purses too..
Swim suits waiting for me to wear this summer..
and winter clothes waiting for well...the the winter duh.
Nothing is really "mine" anymore in my bedroom which I share with maddie. Times like these make me happy I have someone to share my room with because its not completely bare even though my things are gone...all that remains are clothes I will wear in the coming weeks, a few pairs of shoes...random stuff that probably shouldnt be here anymore and most importantly...my family and life I have known for 3 years.
Im really okay with the thought of moving..its time to pack up and move on, im just gonna miss everything : (
Enough about me..ive got kids to discipline!
Sio
This move is hard..maybe harder than moving out here in the first place, maybe not but its really hard. Thats all I can say about it...
My picture frames are gone..
Books shipped out..
Shoes in their new home..
Purses too..
Swim suits waiting for me to wear this summer..
and winter clothes waiting for well...the the winter duh.
Nothing is really "mine" anymore in my bedroom which I share with maddie. Times like these make me happy I have someone to share my room with because its not completely bare even though my things are gone...all that remains are clothes I will wear in the coming weeks, a few pairs of shoes...random stuff that probably shouldnt be here anymore and most importantly...my family and life I have known for 3 years.
Im really okay with the thought of moving..its time to pack up and move on, im just gonna miss everything : (
Enough about me..ive got kids to discipline!
Sio
Thursday, April 15, 2010
maybe im not meant to blog?
Mayyyyyyyyybe just maybe im not meant to blog...stupid statement huh? Because no one is MEANT to blog, it just happens. Like a lot of other things, it just comes to me. Maybe I blog because I know that not that many people read this so its like talking to someone without really talking. let me tell you what...blogging helps, and it helps a lot. I am able to write about everything and anything because not many people know about it and I dont always include names if im mad at someone so it doesnt really hurt anyones feelings when I say stuff.
Anyways..its been awhile since I have blogged and I think thats because 1. I didnt feel like it 2. everytime I started a blogged I realized how supid it was and 3. a lot has been going on that i would rather just keep to myself unless of course I filled you in over text messages : )
Heres whats going on in my life...
1. I freaking hate school. Ive always hated school but this college business has really gotten to me lately and its really not that hard but because I was dumb and took two years off of school its taking longer than planned to get back into the swing of school. I have exactly 2 months until I am done with school and im not sure im going to go back..haha okay of course im going to go back but I do have a lot of work to do to get through this semester.
2. I quit my job and since then things have gotten way worse. My days drag on, I never want to be here, I never talk to anyone other than Danyele and I think thats because I know my time is coming so I just want to get it over with and leave.
3. My vacation is a week away and I wish it was sooner, like now would be good. Anyways...im going to North Carolina next thursday and im not coming back, okay obviously im coming back because i have school and I have a job here so i need to come back annnnd im not really ready to leave yet. I mean yeah if I didnt have school and had a job in nc i would be out of here no doubt about it buuuuuuuut I still have things going on here and friends im going to miss so ill stay here and hang out for a few more months : )
umm thats about it for now...i guess i kinda of got side tracked so i forget what all I wanted to write but this should be enough for now..anyways...i need a nap : )
Anyways..its been awhile since I have blogged and I think thats because 1. I didnt feel like it 2. everytime I started a blogged I realized how supid it was and 3. a lot has been going on that i would rather just keep to myself unless of course I filled you in over text messages : )
Heres whats going on in my life...
1. I freaking hate school. Ive always hated school but this college business has really gotten to me lately and its really not that hard but because I was dumb and took two years off of school its taking longer than planned to get back into the swing of school. I have exactly 2 months until I am done with school and im not sure im going to go back..haha okay of course im going to go back but I do have a lot of work to do to get through this semester.
2. I quit my job and since then things have gotten way worse. My days drag on, I never want to be here, I never talk to anyone other than Danyele and I think thats because I know my time is coming so I just want to get it over with and leave.
3. My vacation is a week away and I wish it was sooner, like now would be good. Anyways...im going to North Carolina next thursday and im not coming back, okay obviously im coming back because i have school and I have a job here so i need to come back annnnd im not really ready to leave yet. I mean yeah if I didnt have school and had a job in nc i would be out of here no doubt about it buuuuuuuut I still have things going on here and friends im going to miss so ill stay here and hang out for a few more months : )
umm thats about it for now...i guess i kinda of got side tracked so i forget what all I wanted to write but this should be enough for now..anyways...i need a nap : )
The Last Song By Nicholas Sparks
Okay, so maybe im waayyyy behind the times because I just finished the book last night and most people have seen the movie, if they have any interest in seeing it...well I have interest in seeing it. Buuuuut since Im so weird I like to read the book before I watch the movie as I have done with other nicholas sparks books that have been made into movies.
Anyways my point.
That book is sad, seriously sad, and im not going to lie...I cried...a lot. Maybe I cried because all I am is and emotional girl at times and thats what we do. We cry when things are sad. At the end of this book the girl and her brother find out that their dad is dying of cancer and he doesnt have much longer to live...okay if thats not sad in itself I dont know what is. I didnt cry until this part of the book because I remember watching one of my fellow classmates go through this most of our time in high school. Her mom had breast cancer and she was in remission but the cancer came back and eventually won. It broke my heart to think about that and what it must have been like to personally go through that. I know that I am strong, very strong but I promise you I will never be strong enough to lose one of my parents to cancer and thats that.
Even though this book is obviously not based on a true story, it happens. It happens everyday to children everywhere. Every single day that passes some child or children lose their parents to cancer as well as other illnesses or tragedies. All I really have to say is "im sorry". Im sorry you had to go through that and im sorry that you will never get the time back you have missed with your mother or father. I give you major credit for getting through it though thats for sure...
Okay sooo I think im going to end this post and go write a positive one : )
Anyways my point.
That book is sad, seriously sad, and im not going to lie...I cried...a lot. Maybe I cried because all I am is and emotional girl at times and thats what we do. We cry when things are sad. At the end of this book the girl and her brother find out that their dad is dying of cancer and he doesnt have much longer to live...okay if thats not sad in itself I dont know what is. I didnt cry until this part of the book because I remember watching one of my fellow classmates go through this most of our time in high school. Her mom had breast cancer and she was in remission but the cancer came back and eventually won. It broke my heart to think about that and what it must have been like to personally go through that. I know that I am strong, very strong but I promise you I will never be strong enough to lose one of my parents to cancer and thats that.
Even though this book is obviously not based on a true story, it happens. It happens everyday to children everywhere. Every single day that passes some child or children lose their parents to cancer as well as other illnesses or tragedies. All I really have to say is "im sorry". Im sorry you had to go through that and im sorry that you will never get the time back you have missed with your mother or father. I give you major credit for getting through it though thats for sure...
Okay sooo I think im going to end this post and go write a positive one : )
Monday, April 12, 2010
well well well...
im down to 1 week and 4 days left of waiting until I get to hop on a plane and fly across the country to north carolina...not gonna like im pretty excited : )
Im excited mainly to FINALLY get to hang out with mattchu. Ive been patiently waiting for awhile now and im sick of waiting, i think we all know im not a very patient person, I dont like waiting on much but this has been totally worth it.
I am also excited to get the heck out of here....this house has me stressed out beyond belief. It really hurts my feelings that everyone expects me to do things for them and they dont appreciate it...ever. They might say they do but newwwwws flash. They dont. Okay maybe its really junior highish that im complaining about something so stupid like this but ive been around for 3 years and just in the past couple months ive hated it more than anything ive ever been through in my life.
ughhhh. i need a nap.
sio
Im excited mainly to FINALLY get to hang out with mattchu. Ive been patiently waiting for awhile now and im sick of waiting, i think we all know im not a very patient person, I dont like waiting on much but this has been totally worth it.
I am also excited to get the heck out of here....this house has me stressed out beyond belief. It really hurts my feelings that everyone expects me to do things for them and they dont appreciate it...ever. They might say they do but newwwwws flash. They dont. Okay maybe its really junior highish that im complaining about something so stupid like this but ive been around for 3 years and just in the past couple months ive hated it more than anything ive ever been through in my life.
ughhhh. i need a nap.
sio
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Ive chosen to keep my head up..
I decided from now on instead of getting upset or down or sad or whatever you want to call it, im going to keep my head up. Keeping my head up because I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Things are going to get better for me, I can tell. I cant be a debbie downer anymore...I know there are people out there that would kill to see me fail miserably but I cant let that happen. I have little eyes watching my every move, listening to my every word and looking up to me as a role model and what kind of role model would I be if i was sad and depressed all the time? not a very good one..
Eh em. I would like to apologize for my posts being so bi-polar lately...sometimes Im happy..sometimes im sad and sometimes im just blah. Bare with me...we all have our moments and if you dont then im not sure you are normal.
I have two weeks and half a day until I go to north carolina. I am pretty excited about that. Ill get to see my Aunt who I havent seen since christmas which actually isnt that bad because it was a year before that I saw her last...anyways and ill get to spend the whooole weekend with mattchu. Mattchu i will say is such a trooper for putting up with my good moods, my bad moods and my inbetween moods and for that....I <3 him.
I have 10 weeks until I will be living in North Carolina...charlotte to be exact for those creepers out there, and no im not telling you my new address...but anyways...10 weeks seems like a long time but its really not...its going to go by fast I know..look at all that has happened in the last 10 weeks....Abby turned 21, Jenn thought she was deploying but didnt, Diaz did deploy for a year, Matt came home from a year long deployment, Emma turned 2 annnnnd everything else that has happened....so 10 weeks isnt a big deal to me...bring it on...bring on the work days, the work outs, the homework, the finals, my moms visiting and the visits with matt, bring it on :) as each one comes and goes it will be closer to the time I move..
..which brings me to my next note....i am so scared. Im scared to leave whats been normal to me for 3 years...yes 3 years. Ive been in the conner family for 3 years and I love them all very much. The Lamberts (kellys family) adopted me in as one of their own and its like im leaving home all over again. Wont be as hard because im not leaving my REAL family but its gonna be an emotional moment to leave this family as well as my amazing friends. Ive met a lot of characters out here and I wouldnt trade them for anyone else....ahh snap. im gonna miss this!
Peace. Love. Better days,
Sio
Eh em. I would like to apologize for my posts being so bi-polar lately...sometimes Im happy..sometimes im sad and sometimes im just blah. Bare with me...we all have our moments and if you dont then im not sure you are normal.
I have two weeks and half a day until I go to north carolina. I am pretty excited about that. Ill get to see my Aunt who I havent seen since christmas which actually isnt that bad because it was a year before that I saw her last...anyways and ill get to spend the whooole weekend with mattchu. Mattchu i will say is such a trooper for putting up with my good moods, my bad moods and my inbetween moods and for that....I <3 him.
I have 10 weeks until I will be living in North Carolina...charlotte to be exact for those creepers out there, and no im not telling you my new address...but anyways...10 weeks seems like a long time but its really not...its going to go by fast I know..look at all that has happened in the last 10 weeks....Abby turned 21, Jenn thought she was deploying but didnt, Diaz did deploy for a year, Matt came home from a year long deployment, Emma turned 2 annnnnd everything else that has happened....so 10 weeks isnt a big deal to me...bring it on...bring on the work days, the work outs, the homework, the finals, my moms visiting and the visits with matt, bring it on :) as each one comes and goes it will be closer to the time I move..
..which brings me to my next note....i am so scared. Im scared to leave whats been normal to me for 3 years...yes 3 years. Ive been in the conner family for 3 years and I love them all very much. The Lamberts (kellys family) adopted me in as one of their own and its like im leaving home all over again. Wont be as hard because im not leaving my REAL family but its gonna be an emotional moment to leave this family as well as my amazing friends. Ive met a lot of characters out here and I wouldnt trade them for anyone else....ahh snap. im gonna miss this!
Peace. Love. Better days,
Sio
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